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BB6 LESLEY:BIG BRO RUINED ME
Ecstasy at flash BB bash.. snorting line after line of cocaine with two groping strangers ..buying pile of drugs big enough to kill me..plus a bottle of wine & 33 vodkas in one go..
By Caroline Waterston
BIG Brother star Lesley Sanderson told last night how she almost killed herself with cocaine and booze binges after her two weeks of TV fame sent her spiralling into the gutter.
The busty brunette - at the centre of a hotel rape claim - confessed to snorting the Class A drug at wild drinking sessions with men she barely knew.
Fighting back tears Lesley, 19, told The People: "I could have killed myself. At one point I honestly didn't care whether I lived or died.
"Big Brother ruined my life and turned me into a hate figure. I thought cocaine was the only way to block out the pain. Before Big Brother I had never touched drugs.
"Now I've come through that terrible time but I know I could have ended up on a mortuary slab."
Lesley, an ex-performing arts student who took part in the sixth Channel 4 series of the reality show this summer, told how she...
BLEW her £15,000 earnings from the show on drugs, booze and partying.
SNORTED line after line of cocaine after drunkenly going to a flat with two unknown men.
FEARS she was secretly and intimately filmed in a drug stupor.
SPENT £120 on four grams of cocaine which she planned to take in one potentially-fatal session.
DRANK killer amounts of alchol, including 25 vodka shots in half an hour followed by four double vodka and Red Bulls.
TOOK an Ecstasy tab from a friend at the BB end-of-series party.
WAS BRANDED a tart after going into the house in a naughty nurse's outfit and baring her boobs in the Jacuzzi.
MOVED OUT of her respectable parents' home to a squalid flat in a red-light district.
Lesley, from Skelmanthorpe near Huddersfield, West Yorks, hit rockbottom two weeks ago when she claimed she was raped in a hotel room by a man she barely knew.
Now reunited with mum Heather, 39, and dad Paul, 36, the troubled girl said: "I know that if I don't stop now and quit drugs forever I could ruin what little sanity I have left.
"My mum says I changed when I went into Big Brother. She says that I have no self value any more and if I'm 100 per cent honest with myself that's probably true.
"Before BB I was a popular girl. I had lads falling at my feet. But after the TV show that stopped.
"I snogged a couple of blokes - even took it a bit further - but they were only interested in me because I was Lesley from BB.
"The nice lads weren't interested. They thought I was a bitch and obviously because of the way I was portrayed in the house so did their mothers.
"Then I started to get attacked by jealous girls. One stuck a broken bottle in the back of my neck in a club. It was too much." Lesley turned to cocaine in a "stupid" bid to make her feel better.
She said: "I met this bloke outside a club in Huddersfield. I was legless. I'd had two bottles of wine before I even left the house, then I went to a bar and had four double vodka and red bulls and at another club I must have had at least eight double vodka red bulls.
"This guy, Dave, asked me if I wanted to go back to his house for a party.
"There we went to his bedroom with his mate and carried on drinking. Dave asked if I wanted to take some coke.
"I had never done it before. I did four lines that night. As the first line shot up my nose and trickled down my throat I felt sick. It tasted disgusting. I'm not going to say I hated it because quite frankly I didn't. It relaxed me and as I sprawled out on the bed I felt chilled. I enjoyed the experience.
"After I snorted the drug, I was completely wasted. The lads were trying to kiss me and joked about us having a threesome but it didn't happen.
"But I'm positive one of the lads took pictures of me on his mobile phone. I am also certain that he tried to take a photo up my skirt."
Lesley wanted more of the confidence-boosting drug and arranged her own low-life deal. She said: "One of my pal's boyfriends is into drugs and I said that I wanted to buy some coke.
"The dealer came to their house. I went downstairs and gave him the money on the doorstep.
"I paid £120 for four grams. I planned to take it the lot in one go. Looking back, I realise that could have killed me."
But her plan was ruined when mum Heather turned up at the squalid flat where she was living, found the drugs stash and flushed it down the toilet.
Lesley said: "Mum went mad. She saw my life was spiralling out of control and there was nothing I wouldn't do. The way she was thinking, heroin could have been next." Lesley was tempted by an offer of Ecstasy at the BB farewell party but was stopped by housemate Sam Heuston. Lesley recalled: "I said yes but Sam told the guy that I wasn't to have it. She grabbed it away from me.
"I asked her why she was bothered what I did after all that had happened in the house but she said she didn't want to see me making a fool of myself.
"Sadly I've made a total fool or myself of many occasions since then. My drinking was getting uncontrollable.
"One night I drank 25 vodka shots in half an hour. I also downed four double vodkas and red bull and three Malibus, then a bottle of wine. I couldn't even stand. I am utterly ashamed."
And her mum shamed her into giving up drugs by telling her kid brothers. Lesley said: "Jamie, who is 14, looked at me in sheer disgust. He always looked up to me and his stare tore me apart."
Following her alleged rape at a hotel in Leeds, a man has been arrested and bailed by police.
Lesley, who is due to record a single called Hated in the next few weeks and plans to write a book about her experiences, said: "I'm back with mum, dad and the boys and I now realise that I struggle to cope on my own.
"Just days ago I still felt as if I wanted to kill myself.
"If it hadn't been for the family I would have definitely taken more drugs - more and more - until I was addicted or dead. Thank God they've saved me."
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Source, The People
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21-05-2008, 07:06 PM
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