[arista]

Originally Posted by Shaun

I'm considering it.

I think I may be bipolar, or just plain depressed lol. I keep having recurring dreams about my late brother & father and waking up from them just always leaves me... I don't know, but it just puts me in a down mood for the rest of the day.

I also feel like there isn't anyone I want to or can talk to about it... especially my family because my mum was actually diagnosed with depression and had almost a year off work because of it so I feel like it'd be taking the piss. "Hi mum yeah you know how your firstborn died and you feel like a failed parent? Well I sometimes can't sleep..." you know? And I've always had difficulty expressing these things to friends, I think that's why I spill so much to people on here. And then I just get more down because it feels like no one cares, but really it's just my fault because I don't feel like I can open up.

But yeah... The stigma of "getting counselling" definitely puts me off.

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[Marsh.]

Originally Posted by Niamh.

aw Shaun you shouldn't feel like that, I'm sure your mother would hate to know that's how you feel as well. If your mother suffers with depression she's probably the best person to speak to about it and she'll probably understand alot of what you're feeling

I agree with this.

From my own experience, it would probably actually be quite comforting to both of you to open up about it knowing you're both going through similar things.

I remember having recurring dreams that were like flashbacks to my childhood for a good six months or so. I always thought it was a suppressed memory fighting its way to the surface and would say "I'm almost there mum, I'll have something on you soon enough "

[Jake.]

Originally Posted by Shaun

I'm considering it.

I think I may be bipolar, or just plain depressed lol. I keep having recurring dreams about my late brother & father and waking up from them just always leaves me... I don't know, but it just puts me in a down mood for the rest of the day.

I also feel like there isn't anyone I want to or can talk to about it... especially my family because my mum was actually diagnosed with depression and had almost a year off work because of it so I feel like it'd be taking the piss. "Hi mum yeah you know how your firstborn died and you feel like a failed parent? Well I sometimes can't sleep..." you know? And I've always had difficulty expressing these things to friends, I think that's why I spill so much to people on here. And then I just get more down because it feels like no one cares, but really it's just my fault because I don't feel like I can open up.

But yeah... The stigma of "getting counselling" definitely puts me off.

I doubt that your mum would think that of you, I've found out over the past year that keeping things to yourself to the point you feel bottled up really doesn't do anybody any good. You should try and sit down and have a bit of a heart to heart with her, because she's dealt with depression first hand and she'd want to know how you're feeling. I can tell you that pleanty of people care and none of your friends (in real life and in TiBB life) would want you feeling this low. I've had counselling and the 'stigma' wears off after a couple of sessions once you realise that you're there just to chat and get somebody elses point of view, because that's all that it is..

Here if you ever want to chat

[Ammi]

Originally Posted by Shaun

I'm considering it.

I think I may be bipolar, or just plain depressed lol. I keep having recurring dreams about my late brother & father and waking up from them just always leaves me... I don't know, but it just puts me in a down mood for the rest of the day.

I also feel like there isn't anyone I want to or can talk to about it... especially my family because my mum was actually diagnosed with depression and had almost a year off work because of it so I feel like it'd be taking the piss. "Hi mum yeah you know how your firstborn died and you feel like a failed parent? Well I sometimes can't sleep..." you know? And I've always had difficulty expressing these things to friends, I think that's why I spill so much to people on here. And then I just get more down because it feels like no one cares, but really it's just my fault because I don't feel like I can open up.

But yeah... The stigma of "getting counselling" definitely puts me off.

..I think that might be the link though...maybe you haven't allowed yourself to feel things and stifled your grief because you've felt that you've had to show emotional strength for your family on the outside ..and that's probably been ok for a while/you've got by and felt you were ok but those things still need to be felt/to be allowed some of your conscious time ...because you try not to let that happen, that's why they're invading your dreams ..your emotions and feelings need a release..

[Kizzy]

That's the thing with broad shoulders, sometimes you feel like there's too much balanced on there.
If you don't think your friends will understand and you don't want to burden your mother just don't tell them?
Your friends don't give you well meaning glances and your mother gets her support, but you do too...win win