[Beso]

Too much hassle for me posting clips of things.

I'm just in from my day out, lost at the doms.. the darts got cancelled for safety issues..was nearly epic at pool until the white flew if the end of my cue like a soaring goose. When it landed with a clatter against a disgruntled golf club members last chunk of scampi in the basket, the look on his face as my tourettes shouted "al have the 500 pound kitty for the next hole in one contest for that" well the look just said, time to go down the street for parmy.

So I did, and here I am, 3 am, 60 quid gone in the kitty at the golf club heaven knows how much down the town, But i went out with 140..and I've got 1 crumpled up five pound note, and a hooter full of white stuff..I hate myself and my weakness.

So tibb young ones....please.

From the bottom of my heart, please. Please don't be a arsehole like me..be strong, be true to yourself.


The 23rd is my 29 year old daughters birthday, she doesn't speak to me. No wonder, I ran away from her when she was 3, I was selfish then, and selfish now because I've given up hope on everything.

Only thing I've properly loved in the proper loving way has been taken from me by auntie karma..I deserve it.

Merry xmas tibb.

Dont be a **** like me for the rest of your lifes.