[Garfie]

Originally Posted by Ammi

..I’m sure he does genuinely want to leave at times...those times being when he’s feeling oppressed by what he feels is the bad energy...but then that oppression is lifted by the good energy of those he sees in a more positive but on the whole, there couldn’t be a house more positive and understanding toward him..he’s not seeing though how understanding and tolerant the house are being because as a person, most of them really like him so make allowances for him and rearrange for him and adjust for him etc, etc ...but as a housemate he’s proving not easy to live with...he’s the oppressor really, although he doesn’t mean to be so and doesn’t see the bad or exhausting energy he creates... when Lewis gets anxious and upset, they have to soothe him over...they have to try to not upset him and trigger his anxieties...and some are less tolerant because...how many allowances do they make for one person, so that he doesn’t become anxious and unhappy...?...I guess the answer is lots and lots and lots of allowances, which they’re constantly making and trying to help him with his unbalances...but no matter how much positive energy he’s given by so many people and with so much understanding and with so much tolerance and genuine affection toward him...his head will pick and pick and pick away until he finds that negative energy to latch on to again and to drive him crazy ...

You make lots of good points here, Ammi.

It is really ironic that Lewis will express the need for calm and positive energy, yet as you say, creates a very heavy and exhausting energy through his paranoia and negativity. It's almost like he self sabotages for some reason.

However, it is clear he is aware of his own issues, and is making efforts to address them. Though it is also clear that sometimes those issues control him rather than him controlling them.