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ukturtle, i feel really really sad for you now

I have cheated and i still feel awful about it.
First time was with Toader technically ... we had just split up but i made out with him about 5 seconds before someone else and broke his heart. But that was with James ...
But this year, there was someone, who I kissed. and then I stopped. then I dumped James and went out with this guy for two weeks.
I was incredibly, incredibly stupid and I am SO lucky I have such a wonderful boyfriend who forgives so easily. He forgave alot before me.

It made me realize alot of things about myself, aswell.
I didn't realize how much it affected my boyfriend until Sweden where one day he admitted that though he trusted me, he didn't trust me as much as I did and he'd never ever believed i'd have done something like that, ever.

I still get really upset talking about it, and I feel REALLY, really guilty. and I NEVER feel guilty. ever.

Being a cheater was an absolutley horrible thing to do and I'm going to spend the rest of my life making it up to James and I can honestly say I would Never, EVER do that to him again.