[Noel]

Heyy..I've just had a really bad strange night. I was out with my friend all day in Belfast City Centre. My girlfriend, Tina was out with her other friends, and all was fine. But, when I was on the bus to go home, I got a call from her friend saying she was really drunk and she was calling for me. I was a little unphased, because she's been drunk before and I was like "oh right, is she ok?" and she was like "No, she's fallen at least 4 times and has hit her head hard." And I could hear her moaning in the background, so I was like..this must be pretty bad. I got off the bus, much to my friend's anger, and ran to get her. They said she was in one of the shopping centres, so I went up, and they told me she was in the toilets. When I got up to the toilets, some were standing outside and they told me she was really bad, and I couldn't go in, because obviously, it was a girls' toilets. I felt so useless and I just couldn't do anything. To make things worse, one of her friends (a boy) said to me "If it was my girl, I wouldn't have let this happen", which made me feel like the crappest boyfriend in the world, cuz it was kinda true. Anyways, I forced myself to go in. Everyone told me it was okay to, even though loadza women coming in kept looking at me. I went to the cubicle where all her friends were standing and she was lying there with her head between her legs covered in sick. It make me feel sick even looking at it. They had been trying for ages, apparently, to get her up, but she wouldn't, and she had puked over herself. It was disgusting. Eventually, we got her up and dragged her through town to a taxi depot and got a private taxi home. Luckily, they were kind about it, despite the first one we tried refusing us. When we got her home, her mum was furious and tried to blame us. I felt like I deserved some of the blame though, but I told her that I hadn't been with her all day. So I've just come home, feeling like crap. I feel I should have done something to stop her. She told me she was drinking last night, but I didn't know she would drink so much. She apparently drank half of two 10 glass bottles of vodka RAW. I just think I could have prevented this, and that I should have been there for her. :/ Can anyone relate to this or help me? It's really got to me, tbh. lol.

Thanks.