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EXCLUSIVE: Sam reveals secret breakdown after she left the house

BIG BRUV FAME LEFT MY LIFE IN TATTERS

By Polly Graham & Rachel Richardson


These stunning new pictures [available online, if looking at desperate people topless appeals to you] of Big Brother beauty Sam Heuston mask a heartbreak secret—a nervous breakdown took her to the cliff-edge of suicide. Back from the brink and revelling in life again, Sam revealed she spiralled into depression as she struggled to cope with fame after leaving the TV house.

"I had a complete breakdown," she told us. "In my darkest days I wanted to end it all. And I didn't have sex for three months—before I cracked up I needed it four times a day."

After her BB eviction in June, Sam, 24, became a virtual recluse at her parents' home in Cheam, Surrey—to escape constant recognition, taunts, whispers and nudges.

"I felt paranoid," she said. "It was so upsetting and confusing. I was in tears all the time."

Afraid to go out, Sam spent days moping about the house binge-eating and self-harming, picking at her face when she felt stressed. In weeks she was a total wreck and thought suicide was the only way out.

"My mum was really upset when I said I'd be better off dead," confessed Sam. "She and Dad tried to help but I'd just be really horrible to them. It was awful. I didn't know if it would ever end. I'd sit home all day crying."

It was the onset of depression which put a stop to her budding relationship with former Blue star Duncan James. "I just couldn't handle it the way I used to," she admitted. In the end Sam's parents forced her to see the doctor. "I thought I was going mad," she recalled. "After explaining it all, he prescribed some powerful anti-depressants. I couldn't believe that's how bad I'd got."

Thankfully Sam has now beaten her demons. Full of confidence again, she is determined to carve out a career in TV and modelling. Her breathtaking poses at our exclusive photo session proved she's back to her best—and looking raunchier than ever after switching from brunette to blonde. "These are the sexiest pictures I've ever done—the best tonic ever for depression," giggled Sam. "And I'm starting to feel horny again!"


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