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http://www.thesun.co.uk/sol/homepage...xic-again.html

TROUBLED former Big Brother housemate Nikki Grahame says she feels like a "failure" after revealing she is suffering from anorexia again — three years after telling how she had beaten the disease.
The 29-year-old said she has relapsed and checked into a clinic for the 11th time since first showing signs of the condition aged eight.

It came after she managed to stay on top of the illness for ten years. But now she eats just half of what she used to take in and weighs only 5st 8lb.


Interview ... Heat magazine
Nikki told Heat magazine: "I feel like a failure. I've written my book and said that I've beaten this illness but now it's completely controlling me.

"I have to know where and when I'll be eating two days in advance so I can prepare myself mentally. It just completely controls everything."

She blames an op to remove a bunion for sparking her relapse after the thought of not being able to exercise made her "panic".

She added: "Then, as soon as I could, I started exercising to a ridiculous degree — but without increasing the food.

"I have this phobia of having more than 400 calories at any one time. I can't allow myself to sleep if I feel I haven't done enough exercise."

In 2008 Nikki described the horror of her suffering in her book Dying to Be Thin in which she revealed she had to be fed through a tube for two years and weighed only 3st at the age of 13.