[AngRemembered]

Originally posted by stacey
That's really sad Angie but well said
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Well thank you Stacey
You know the most difficult thing about writing that was the reactions people are going to take, its almost as if we have stock answers like "oh thats a shame" oh thats real brave" ect... I'd be exactly the same as you, as I think you guys have the tough part here.

In my position, I have no choice, I'm not brave, Im cr*apping myself at dying and soon.. it worries me sick somedays and when I get into moods and fights here I feel worse knowing that could easily of been my last message...damn its scary somedays.
Its sad only in the sense of shock too, but we all have to adapt to circumstances, Ive known now for 5 days that things look drastic, I'm getting no positive vibes at all from my doctor or councillor both know me well enough now and my doc simply says dont buy tickets for the London olympics now what else can he do, I want the info to cope better, but I'm also partial to being worried and terrified of dying, like ANYONE.

Its easier though when there is no other options, I can't get scared and go shoot myself, so what else can I do?, but take it and deal with it the best you can, again as anyone else would HAVE to do.

The plus sides are I get to work on my poems for my husband daughter and I'm writing one for my best friends on tibb too I get to choose and arrange my own funeral without being called over morbid so life is now FULL, my days are now like a week.
But, the best thing Ive done today is get this of my chest, its never easy telling someone the whole truth, and how best to do it, if there was a better way I'd have done it that way believe me.