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It's not something I personally understand unless it's for psychological reasons, which it often is. It's very often linked to addiction or disability (mental or physical), not things that you can just discard and move on.

My mum (a chronic alcoholic, for those who haven't seen me mention it elsewhere) attempted suicide a few times over the 15 years of her addiction. Part of it was that she woke up some mornings and saw the mess she had made of her life and her body. Part of it was the ever changing rainbow spectrum of SSRI meds they kept cycling her through, which are just plain ****ing dangerous (they saturate and damage serotonin receptors and can over time make it impossible to feel anything but misery... great little pills.) She also had chronic back pain on and off and on one occasion just couldn't cope with that pain and tried to end it. Another reason for suicide I understand, to be honest - some people are just in too much physical pain to endure it any longer.

She died of liver failure earlier this year and, somewhat ironically, on her death bed she knew that she had "killed herself" (not deliberately, but by pushing her body too far) and in the end she didn't want to die. She regretted it.

Anyway ... err... I guess what I'm saying is that having been close to someone who utterly destroyed herself, I do understand how people get into a pit that is just too deep to ever dig out of. My mum, for example, even if she had had a sudden turnaround psychologically and kicked her addiction, her body was already completely broken and she couldn't have had a "normal" life for a woman of her age (under 60), no matter what. That was unfixable. Some people are just unfixable.

What I don't understand, though, is people who do it because they have gotten themselves into bad personal circumstances / debt spirals, etc. without actual clinical depression... if you're really at rock bottom and ready to kill yourself, I'd say isn't that freeing? Pack a bag, tell everyone to **** off and just... go! Go on an adventure! Rob a bank and go on the run! Do something crazy and exciting. The worst that can happen is that you might die and... you're there anyway!