[Mystic Mock]

Welcome back Vicky.

It's always good to see members return rather than leaving like what's been happening recently.

[Redway]

Originally Posted by Glenn.

I was going to suggest this.

The thing with CBD is that there are so many counterfeit/fake brands sold these days so you have to be careful what you buy if you actually need it to work.

@Vicky: you ever heard of My Indica Beauty? I feel like it’s one of the few reputable places you can get real CBD off the web. and they have different strengths available. If someone like you’s more suited to 1500-milligram capsules of the stuff the 200 mg stuff that’s often sold in shops definitely wouldn’t have done much (assuming it was even CBD).

Is it something you’d be interested in starting it again or do you feel like you’ve already devoted a lot of time and money into it as it is?

[Vicky.]

Kinda feel I would go back to try it IF my current crutch started failing, however it seems a waste at the moment when everythings so..controlled? If that makes sense. Happy to continue as I am really until (and hopefully it doesnt happen, the thought fills me with dread now, going back to CONSTANT pain) my way becomes less effective.

I swear I have proper odd social anxiety issues now though that I never really had before. Not sure if its the lack of depression or what but my brain seems broken sometimes. As an example, I just did the school run to pick the kids up right..and for about 10 minutes I was walking behind this couple. I suddenly started thinking they would think I was stalking them as it had gone on so long so..went to cross over the road to be on opposite side instead. BUT they went to cross seconds later so it still looked like I was following them So after a brief feeling of utter horror, I stopped in the middle of the path to write a message on my phone to give them enough time to get a suitable distance ahead?! Its so weird as I know its silly as I am doing it but my brain wont cooperate with me.

Immediately following this there was some guy walking really slow infront of me with a walking stick. I needed to pass him really but felt he may be offended if I stormed past but then thought he might feel like I was trying to hurry him by walking slowly behind him. So it was no win

As I said, before **** like that wouldnt even cross my mind(it MAY be that I just didnt care about anything in general before? IDK its all odd and new). And am not sure if its 'normal' or..some sign of issues! Or both.

[Redway]

Maybe you’re in the process of switching from under-sensitive to your external environment to a bit more hyper-sensitive?

It’s honestly pretty normal for people’s personalities to alter somewhat at different stages in life so that might be it (some people start their lives very sociable and outgoing but become more reclusive and introverted as the years go on, not that there’s anything wrong with being an introvert either way, and sometimes the opposite happens). I’d say it only becomes problematic when it’s actually distressing or causing you day-to-day problems that can’t be ignored and I don’t think things are anywhere near that bad for you.

P.S.: might anxiety be a side-effect of your medication?

[rusticgal]

Welcome back Vicky....so glad you are in a happy place

[Vicky.]

Originally Posted by Redway

Maybe you’re in the process of switching from under-sensitive to your external environment to a bit more hyper-sensitive?

It’s honestly pretty normal for people’s personalities to alter somewhat at different stages in life so that might be it (some people start their lives very sociable and outgoing but become more reclusive and introverted as the years go on, not that there’s anything wrong with being an introvert either way, and sometimes the opposite happens). I’d say it only becomes problematic when it’s actually distressing or causing you day-to-day problems that can’t be ignored and I don’t think things are anywhere near that bad for you.

P.S.: might anxiety be a side-effect of your medication?

Maybe..hopefully I end up somewhere in the middle soon then.

[Oliver_W]

Originally Posted by Vicky.

I did this. Til I discovered 20 something year old blokes. Thats a whole different ballgame it seems

Originally Posted by Vicky.

Finally got the balls to leave my crappy marriage and jesus christ I have been a muted version of myself for like..12 years or so.

I think I understand ... You're trading him in for a younger model

[Vicky.]

Originally Posted by Oliver_W

I think I understand ... You're trading him in for a younger model

Funnily enough thats what he convinced himself. He said I have been having an affair with this guy since January and I left Gavin for him. However, I didnt even meet the guy til May. And me and Gav were split up before..stuff

And it would be technically 2 younger models. Single life seems for me

[Oliver_W]

Originally Posted by Vicky.

Funnily enough thats what he convinced himself. He said I have been having an affair with this guy since January and I left Gavin for him. However, I didnt even meet the guy til May. And me and Gav were split up before..stuff

And it would be technically 2 younger models. Single life seems for me

Wow, you're officially a cougar

[Vicky.]

Yes, so my brother informed me

[Vanessa]

Back from the pictures. That was amazing!
Nice weather outside. Loads of people out.

[parmnion]

Originally Posted by Vanessa

Back from the pictures. That was amazing!
Nice weather outside. Loads of people out.

I just love you called them the pictures..

Was the film good?

[Vanessa]

Originally Posted by parmnion

I just love you called them the pictures..

Was the film good?

Brilliant!

[Mystic Mock]

Originally Posted by Vanessa

Brilliant!

What did you watch out of interest?

[Vicky.]

The pictures is the correct term. Cinema makes me think American for some reason.

[Niamh.]

We used to always call it the pictures too but it's changed to the cinema now because of the kids

[Vicky.]

Why do kids require a language change

[parmnion]

They dont, parents just pander to them constantly these days.

[Vicky.]

Originally Posted by parmnion

They dont, parents just pander to them constantly these days.

[Vanessa]

Originally Posted by Mystic Mock

What did you watch out of interest?

Dune

[James]

Originally Posted by Vicky.

The pictures is the correct term. Cinema makes me think American for some reason.

Originally Posted by Niamh.

We used to always call it the pictures too but it's changed to the cinema now because of the kids

I've heard Americans call it the movie theatre, which I always find a bit not right.

[Vicky.]

Originally Posted by James

I've heard Americans call it the movie theatre, which I always find a bit not right.

'A bit not right' is a huge understatement there james.

[GoldHeart]

Originally Posted by James

I've heard Americans call it the movie theatre, which I always find a bit not right.

Or they just say "The movies"

[AnnieK]

Originally Posted by Vicky.

Funnily enough thats what he convinced himself. He said I have been having an affair with this guy since January and I left Gavin for him. However, I didnt even meet the guy til May. And me and Gav were split up before..stuff

And it would be technically 2 younger models. Single life seems for me

One of the girls at my works has just got out of a pretty crappy marriage and has joined dating apps. She is having a ball....she is literally out all the time living her best life Being single suits her too

[Alf]

Welcome back, Victoria.