[farhad]

Nikki's in Star today for The Star Interview. A good interview but sad at the end .

full page photo of Nikki in leggings and blue patterned dress sitting in a wicker chair, it looks like an outtake from the photo session she did with Guy in OK with the caption "Nikki's loving life despite her recent heartbreak and health problems". Plus there's a photo of N&P at the NTA's.

"I can't bear to look at myself if I put any weight on"
From her famous tantrums to her short lived romance with fellow HM Pete, the BB7 star spills the beans.

She may not have won the show, but Nikki Grahame was undoubtedly the star of last year's BB with her extroadinary temper tantrums and brief romance with fellow HM Pete Bennett.

This year the likes of Chanelle and Charley have tried their very best to replicate her infamous DR hissy fits in a bid to gain popularity, but there's only one Nikki - and as Star discovers as we chat with the 25yr old - she has a lot more going on than gurning facial expressions and strops over the air con.

As the waif like blonde tucks into a large assortment of prawn dumplings, breads and sashimi, she talks about her battle with anorexia, her recent osteoporosis diagnosis and not being able to find a trustworthy boyfriend.

So, just "who is she?" We're about to find out...

Nikki, you're one of the few BB7 contestants still around. Are you surprised by that?
I've just always been myself, there's no secret formula, so I guess it's a surprise.

Do you worry about it ending?
Not really. I'm just grateful to have been around as long as I have - it's been over a year.

What would you do if you had to go back to a "regular" life?
I'd love to maybe open a boutique and sell my range of clothing. That was one of my goals anyway, even before the whole BB thing. I'm very optimistic about life - when one door closes and all that...."

Do you think any of the BB8 HM's will do as well as you have outside the house?
Maybe - Chanelle seems to be doing OK so far. But it hasn't been the best year at all. I'm not sure if that's down to their personalities.

Do you think the show has suffered since Chanelle left?
No way! Actually, I think Carole's a big character. I really want her to do well, and I love the twins.

What about Charley?
She's a nasty piece of work and showed herself up. Where is she now? Will she be around in the next 5 years? I don't think so - people hate her. I read an interview she did when she came out, and she was so mean about Chanelle. Her comments were just so nasty.

If you saw Charley would you tell her what you think of her then?
Actually I think I'd avoid her because I value my life! But she's not the type of person I'd want to associate myself with. Chanelle has been so adult and not said anything back to her.

So you like Chanelle?
I quite like Chanelle, even though she needs to cool her Posh Spice obsession down a bit. But she and Ziggy - "Chiggy" - were unbearable.

You're not keen on Ziggy?
In the begining I wasn't keen and Chanelle made me dislike him more. But she's gone and he's become his own person a bit more since then.

What do you think about how he treated Chanelle when they were together?
He's used to going out with older, more mature women. Don't get me wrong - I like Chanelle - but I think she's too high maintenance and he's used to girls being easy on him and not demanding too much.

So he wasn't using her?
No, I think he did like her

Is he the type you'd go for?
Oh God, no! Ziggy's too smarmy for me. I'd go for Liam as he's got the ego that I tend to go for - he's arrogant. But Liam's gone down in my estimation recently. He needs to remember he brushed Nicky off, messed around with Amy and now he wants to mess around with Amanda!

He bagged himself £100K as well...
Yeah, he's done bloody well! He didnt' deserve that money. I would've liked to have seen Carole get that. She's deserving and would spend it wisely.

We can't see her blowing it on bubbly down Chinawhite..
No! Bless her.

Speaking of partying we heard you were out with Jordan and Danielle Lloyd.
No! Not Danielle Lloyd. Just Jordan and Michelle Scott Lee.

Oops, are you and Danielle not friends then?
No...

Why? Did she tell you to "****** off home" as well?
No, we're just not friends, and that's all I'm going to say.

Come on, spill the beans...
All I'll say is that she only likes to associate - and get her picture taken - with people like Jordan.

So she snubbed you?
She was there with her set of friends and I was with mine, and we both kept to ourselves.

But Jordan didn't snub you, and she's way more famous than Danielle...
That's because Jordan's lovely! No airs and graces. She doesn't need to prove herself. She told my mum "I feel sorry for you the way I feel sorry for my own mum, as Nikki and I are both a nightmare.

Did she give you career advice?
No, but we were having a laugh measuring each other's thighs with our hands. My thighs are a bit smaller, but that's because she's a bit taller than me. But she's really damn skinny. I don't know how she lost weight so quickly after having a baby.

You're one to talk!
Yeah, but Jordan needs a good steak and chips!

Did you talk about boob jobs?
Yes, we talked a bit about boobs. My new pair are settling nicely. I went up to a size 34C.

Would you go any bigger?
Never, no way!

Why did you have them done?
This is my 2nd boob job, I was a 34B before. I need these boobs to make me feel womanly.

Would you have any other plastic surgery?
I spoke to Jordan about Botox cos she does it. She said to me "look, I'm frowning and there are no lines". I frown and there are all these lines!

Are you thinking of getting it?
I've got an appointment for it in Harley Street later today - look at my wrinkles! I read in a paper, "Nikki scrunches her testicle-like forehead". It really upset me.

Do you have any other celeb pals?
Yes, I arranged to go to V Festival with Chantelle.

What's going on with her and Preston because a lot of people are saying their split is a sham?
No, but they're good friends. I don't really want to comment cos it's private.

Does she confide in you?
We're friends but seriously she and Preston are just really close, which is hard for people to understand - it's no sham.

Are you pally with any other celebs?
Louis Walsh and I text each other every now and again.

We just interviewed Louis and he called all BB contestants losers?
Really? The first time I met Louis was at a party and he was so nice to me. He got me and my friends tix for the X Factor final and let us in his dressing room where we met his family.

What about Simon Cowell?
He's funny. I imagined him to be quite scary, but he winked at me at the NTA. The only person that has left me star struck was Robbie Williams.

Do you fancy Robbie?
Yeah! I saw him in a hotel bar 3yrs ago and I was so scared. I wish now I'd said something, but I just froze.

We hear the guy you're seeing looks a bit like Robbie?
No, he's not my boyfriend. We're just friends.

Come on!
No, seriously. I fancy him - he is quite cute - but I've had 2 break ups in 12mths and it's tough to deal with. It takes me ages to get over stuff. I'm just having fun at the moment. If it happens, it happens.

Did you break up with Guy burn you?
He was a user.

Speaking of exes, are you still in touch with Pete?
Not really. He texted me in April asking how I was doing.

Do you look back at that relationship and feel embarrassed about it?
No. When you're in that house you get caught up. It's like a whole magical love story. It ran its course and it's a shame how it ended. I was devastated, but I'm completely over it now. We weren't meant to be together. His fiancee's perfect for him.

You've been diagnosed with oseoporosis. How are you?
Scared. It's very scary. Everyday life's hard. I went to the roller disco last week and I was so scared that I was going to fall.

When did you first realise there was a problem?
My doctor told me to go for a scan because she was worried. Sometimes it really upsets me, so I just try not to think about it. I've been taking my calcium tablets, but I haven't been taking my oestrogen tablets cos I put weight on, and they give me very bad mood swings.

But isn't it dangerous for you not to take them?
The doctors know that I'm not taking them. But if I don't take my medication, it could lead to curvature of the spine. I started taking them and my legs got bigger. I was crying about putting on that extra weight. I should just take them though, so that my periods will come back.

Does that mean you'll be able to have kids in the future?
No. I don't produce eggs so I can't have kids. But I can have IVF.

The anorexia must still affect you if you're worried about weight gain?
It's still a factor in my mind. But the thing is I fear being out of control. I don't like to feel out of control and if I put on weight I can't bear to look at myself.

What happens if you don't take your medication?
When I was 16, I had a bone scan and had the bones of a 60yr old. It could be fatal cos I'm not getting any better, and the frailer I get, the more I'm at risk.

You seem to have a healthy appetite now...
I always eat breakfast, like cereal. For lunch I have a sandwich and for dinner I'll go for pasta and sauce or a ready meal. I also have yoghurt every day for the calcium.

But it must be hard?
I don't really think about it, I just get on with it. I love life and don't waste any time. I've been so lucky to have had what I've had over the past year and I'm just grateful. Whatever will be, will be.

Nikki's OK column.

OUR COLUMNIST SAYS GERRY'S MADE HISTORY AND THAT TRACEY'S TIME IS UP.

I LOVE GERRY!
Do you know what, I love Gerry! What he did - letting Carole win - was so honourable. I can't believe Carole let him do that. I don't really understand why he suddenly decided he wanted to go, but I think it was amazing.

CRYING CAROLE
Carole has really lost the plot. She's completely crazy! She won't stop crying - she's worse than me! At least when I was in there I was crying for a reason. But she's just crying for no reason. She's lost weight, which is good - you can really see it in her face. She's probably crying cos she wants her biscuits!

A PENCIL IN HIS PANTS
Oh my God. I saw a picture of Ziggy's willy this week. It was the size of a pencil - or at least, the width of a pencil! It was long, but.... it actually looks like a pencil, or a felt tip pen. I died! I've never seen anything so hideous. Liam has definitely won the hunk of the house prize. Everyone likes Liam, I want him to do well.

GIVE IT UP GUYS
Ziggy had a row with Tracey this week cos she said his relationship with Chanelle wasn't real. So he may be out on the defensive now, to prove everyone wrong. I think Chanelle has got out and seen the opportunity she's missed after the split from Ziggy - so she could try and get them together when they're both out. But the thing is, they've proved it won't work. Everyone has seen they cannot work - they've tried and tried and failed and failed, and if they put a front on and try and get loads of deals when he gets out, everyone will know it's fake. But they both want the Posh and Becks thing so badly that they'll do anything. People want a love story. Amanda and Brian - amazing. But not something so manufactured.

A GERRY NICE MAN
This week I thought it was really hard that the gurus had to choose who to evict. It was really awful and if Gerry hadn't spoken up, that moment would have been really horrendous. But Gerry has really won everyone over by putting himself forward to be evicted. It was remarkable what he did - I've never known any HM in the history of BB to do that.

TRACEY'S GOTTA GO!
Last week I was gutted KL didn't go, but in all honesty I'd rather she stayed in and Tracey go next week. Kara doesn't do anything, but she's not offensive. Tracey's just really pushing it now and I just want her out. She was really out of order when she had such a go at Gerry for lying - I mean he only lied about his age! Big deal. Tracey had gone up in my opinion - but now I can't stand her. KL doesn't contribute anything to any aspects of life, but she's not offensive, whereas Tracey really is now. I don't like her any more - she's a complete bitch.

THE ROMANCE IS DEAD...
Amanda and Brian's romance is doomed. Amanda told Carole and Tracey that she just wants Brian as a friend while he ws in bed. I knew this was going to happen. I'm afraid he's really going to have his heart broken.

JONTY'S NOT SO BAD
This week Jonty has really gone up in my estimation. I think he's quite sweet, quite innocent. I know he's not exactly the full ticket, but he's quite nice. There have been a couple of times this week when I've just thought, ah bless! Like when Carole was telling him off and he just took it. He can stay!

[BigBrother_x*]

aww feel sorry for nikki x

[Princess]

Eurgh she likes Robbie Willaims. Chantelle

[Matt]

I feel sorry for Nikki. She shouldn't be working if she has the bones of a 60-year-old at her age.

[Wasted]

Thanks for posting that, good interview but I felt sorry for her at the end.

[farhad]

Originally posted by Matt
I feel sorry for Nikki. She shouldn't be working if she has the bones of a 60-year-old at her age.

Why shouldn't she be allowed to work or socialise.

[Matt]

You've been diagnosed with oseoporosis. How are you?
Scared. It's very scary. Everyday life's hard. I went to the roller disco last week and I was so scared that I was going to fall.

When did you first realise there was a problem?
My doctor told me to go for a scan because she was worried. Sometimes it really upsets me, so I just try not to think about it. I've been taking my calcium tablets, but I haven't been taking my oestrogen tablets cos I put weight on, and they give me very bad mood swings.

But isn't it dangerous for you not to take them?
The doctors know that I'm not taking them. But if I don't take my medication, it could lead to curvature of the spine. I started taking them and my legs got bigger. I was crying about putting on that extra weight. I should just take them though, so that my periods will come back.

Does that mean you'll be able to have kids in the future?
No. I don't produce eggs so I can't have kids. But I can have IVF.

The anorexia must still affect you if you're worried about weight gain?
It's still a factor in my mind. But the thing is I fear being out of control. I don't like to feel out of control and if I put on weight I can't bear to look at myself.

What happens if you don't take your medication?
When I was 16, I had a bone scan and had the bones of a 60yr old. It could be fatal cos I'm not getting any better, and the frailer I get, the more I'm at risk.

You seem to have a healthy appetite now...
I always eat breakfast, like cereal. For lunch I have a sandwich and for dinner I'll go for pasta and sauce or a ready meal. I also have yoghurt every day for the calcium.

But it must be hard?
I don't really think about it, I just get on with it. I love life and don't waste any time. I've been so lucky to have had what I've had over the past year and I'm just grateful. Whatever will be, will be.

I at no point said she shouldn't be allowed to work. I said she shouldn't be working in the condition she is in, which is shown in the excerpt from the interview.

[farhad]

Originally posted by Matt

I at no point said she shouldn't be allowed to work. I said she shouldn't be working in the condition she is in, which is shown in the excerpt from the interview.

The doctors never said that she cannot be abled to work, they told what impact her Anorexia will have in the future, but they did not say that you should stop working.

[Matt]

What happens if you don't take your medication?
When I was 16, I had a bone scan and had the bones of a 60yr old. It could be fatal cos I'm not getting any better, and the frailer I get, the more I'm at risk.

She had better take it easy then, we wouldn't want "Our Nikki" being harmed eh?

[farhad]

Originally posted by Matt

She had better take it easy then, we wouldn't want "Our Nikki" being harmed eh?

She can walk, Ballet Dance and run you know, she doesn't have those problem, so I cannot see why do you say she shouldn't be allowed to work.

[Matt]

I never said she shouldn't be allowed to work, I said she shouldn't be working...

[Stacy17]

Thanks for those!*
Awwww i feel soo sorry for Nikki .. i never knew she couldnt have kids
I think she's so brave!

[Stu]

Originally posted by Stacy17

Awwww i feel soo sorry for Nikki .. i never knew she couldnt have kids

She cant have kids?

[runs to the church to thank Jesus]