[Vicky.]

Originally Posted by Twosugars

You mentioned your health and how it limits your life.
Tell more if you don't mind.

Have gone into this on multiple threads so I kind of worry people are sick of hearing it

Spoiler:

I used to get this weird problem, where every now and again I got this horrific stabbing type pain in the right side of my ribs, that was worse when I moved and kind of felt like a bearhug at the same time..this would persist for a few hours then lessen up. The first time I got it I actually called an ambulance as the chest pain part scared me a bit, they ecg d me and that and said my chest was fine, though diagnosed something called costochondritus. I have since found out that was a misdiagnosis as the pains in the wronf place to be that..

Anyway, this went on months, with the pain coming on average once a month, nothing seemed to trigger it, it was just random. I dealt with it by..well just dealing with it when it happened.

However, after I had my son the pain was near constant. And increasing in intensity also. I was unable to even move for long periods of time due to it, again nothing seemed to trigger it, nothing seems to ease it..just nothing makes any difference. Was put on strong painkillers eventually while investigations were done. Eventually a consultant decided that the pain might be being cause by gallstones. So I was booked in for a removal. Was told the risks were slight, but various things could go wrong. Usual stuff for operations. However, there were complications.. my terrible luck would obviously make it so. It seemed it was only a small ish problem, that the surgeon had cu the wrong place and I had a bile leak. A few days of drains would see me fine. The pain of the drains, it was horrific. Again it hurt to even move at all and it felt like something was eating into my insides constantly..and this was ontop of the usual rib pain, which had not been budged at all by the op. Hospital decided I had been in too long so tried to discharge me..said the drain things could be cut and I could deal with them at home. I was in an absolutely ridiculous amount of pain at this point and absolutely was in no state to go home, I was in tears, unable to stand..my husband blatantly refused to take me home like that too. So they gave a shot of morphine and went to ask for a second opinion. Second doctor came and took one look at me, and sent me back down for emergency surgery. They had to reopen the holes and do a total washout apparently, unsure what else they did (only found out about the surgery while complaining about my treatment..as one of the reports said I had surgery aswell as a washout) but they did something! Turned out the whole time after the failed op..I had been leaking bile from another place the surgeon has ****ed up..and basically my body was drowning in it and being burnt all over..and that if I had not had the second opinion and got the required treatment, had I gone home like they were trying to pressure me to do (alls fine, the ains normal, just deal with it etc) I would have died there that night. Which is lovely.

To cut a very long story short..after all this was done with, I then still had the drain feeling in my chest a lot of the time, along with more burny tpe pain pretty much all over my ribcage. And the original pain too which they tried to write off as 'phantom pain' now as apparently people with gallbladder issues sometimes still gt the gallstone pain even after having no gallbladder, same as people can 'feel' legs that have been amputated and that. Eventually they did decide that it was never caused by me gallbladder mind..but now blatantly refuse to continue investigations into what it actually is. I am convinced it has to be omething to do with hormones, given the pain went way completely the whole time I was pregnant, then came back with a vegeance a month of so afterwards. Its the only thing that makes any sense to me, but they laugh at me for the suggestion

Basically, I now have both the stabbing/knifetwisting/bearhug type pain in my ribcage near constantly (sometimes get a few hours letup, where pain totally goes away for a bit, but it always comes back after some time..usually like 4-5 hours) along with the nerve damage from the failed operation. Honestly, the mix of them has me totally incapacitated a lot of the time. Medication helps somewhat, but it has its own issues, for example the pregablin I take for the nerve pain is quite effective, but it makes me weird and 'dreamy', quite unbalanced and also makes me sleepwalk! I take large amounts of palexia these days for the rib pain. I take 400mg a day, which according to my doctors is the equvialant of 200mg or morphine.

Which is odd. Because I was on 80mg a day of oramorph, then pain clinic started bull****ting on about how that was a dangerously high dose and started saying I needed to half it. At that stage I switched pain clinics as it was clear they were taking the piss tbh, thinking I could just half my pain meds and not have it effect my life in a very very negative way. Other pain clinic took me off oramorph completely and put me onto palexia. It appears, my GPs do not realise palexia is an opiate, as they have no problem prescribing huge doses..despite them also listening to the other pain clinic (I am convinced they were told their budget was cut so were trying to save cash, only thing that makes sense) who were saying that even 80mg a day of morphine was so so dangerous. However, in switching me from oramorph to palexia, they have more than doubled my morphine dose, from 80mg a day to 200mg! Which has helped considerably, but I am dreading when they click on to it and start taking this off me mind..

Another essay, but yeah. Pain issues still plague me like ****, even on 200mg morphine a day. Its quite effective for the rib pain mind..but only for short periods of time whilst its working, inbetween hours are still horrific. But luckily, I can usually work out how to go out with the kids and that. Work it around my morphine doses. Or sometimes, just take double dose while out..as long as its not a regular thing its fine. So I have a vague semblence of a life at the min, but only until the GP realises that they have me on a higher opiate dose than before

[Spoilering as massive and some will find it just..more going over old ground]

Originally Posted by SherzyK

Wanna help me save the rhinos?

Sure, how?

[Cherie]

favourite holiday destination

[Vicky.]

Originally Posted by Cherie

favourite holiday destination

That I have actually been to, Lanzaote. We are possibly overdoing it at the min though as been every year for a fair few years now. But always seems the only affordable place thats decent weather (we go in like..March or November ish, when prices are not too bad). I guess the other canaries are an option too but they seem a lot more cash...so Lanzarote it is.

Dream, Thailand or Barbados, maybe one day

[Twosugars]

Originally Posted by Vicky.

Have gone into this on multiple threads so I kind of worry people are sick of hearing it

Spoiler:

I used to get this weird problem, where every now and again I got this horrific stabbing type pain in the right side of my ribs, that was worse when I moved and kind of felt like a bearhug at the same time..this would persist for a few hours then lessen up. The first time I got it I actually called an ambulance as the chest pain part scared me a bit, they ecg d me and that and said my chest was fine, though diagnosed something called costochondritus. I have since found out that was a misdiagnosis as the pains in the wronf place to be that..

Anyway, this went on months, with the pain coming on average once a month, nothing seemed to trigger it, it was just random. I dealt with it by..well just dealing with it when it happened.

However, after I had my son the pain was near constant. And increasing in intensity also. I was unable to even move for long periods of time due to it, again nothing seemed to trigger it, nothing seems to ease it..just nothing makes any difference. Was put on strong painkillers eventually while investigations were done. Eventually a consultant decided that the pain might be being cause by gallstones. So I was booked in for a removal. Was told the risks were slight, but various things could go wrong. Usual stuff for operations. However, there were complications.. my terrible luck would obviously make it so. It seemed it was only a small ish problem, that the surgeon had cu the wrong place and I had a bile leak. A few days of drains would see me fine. The pain of the drains, it was horrific. Again it hurt to even move at all and it felt like something was eating into my insides constantly..and this was ontop of the usual rib pain, which had not been budged at all by the op. Hospital decided I had been in too long so tried to discharge me..said the drain things could be cut and I could deal with them at home. I was in an absolutely ridiculous amount of pain at this point and absolutely was in no state to go home, I was in tears, unable to stand..my husband blatantly refused to take me home like that too. So they gave a shot of morphine and went to ask for a second opinion. Second doctor came and took one look at me, and sent me back down for emergency surgery. They had to reopen the holes and do a total washout apparently, unsure what else they did (only found out about the surgery while complaining about my treatment..as one of the reports said I had surgery aswell as a washout) but they did something! Turned out the whole time after the failed op..I had been leaking bile from another place the surgeon has ****ed up..and basically my body was drowning in it and being burnt all over..and that if I had not had the second opinion and got the required treatment, had I gone home like they were trying to pressure me to do (alls fine, the ains normal, just deal with it etc) I would have died there that night. Which is lovely.

To cut a very long story short..after all this was done with, I then still had the drain feeling in my chest a lot of the time, along with more burny tpe pain pretty much all over my ribcage. And the original pain too which they tried to write off as 'phantom pain' now as apparently people with gallbladder issues sometimes still gt the gallstone pain even after having no gallbladder, same as people can 'feel' legs that have been amputated and that. Eventually they did decide that it was never caused by me gallbladder mind..but now blatantly refuse to continue investigations into what it actually is. I am convinced it has to be omething to do with hormones, given the pain went way completely the whole time I was pregnant, then came back with a vegeance a month of so afterwards. Its the only thing that makes any sense to me, but they laugh at me for the suggestion

Basically, I now have both the stabbing/knifetwisting/bearhug type pain in my ribcage near constantly (sometimes get a few hours letup, where pain totally goes away for a bit, but it always comes back after some time..usually like 4-5 hours) along with the nerve damage from the failed operation. Honestly, the mix of them has me totally incapacitated a lot of the time. Medication helps somewhat, but it has its own issues, for example the pregablin I take for the nerve pain is quite effective, but it makes me weird and 'dreamy', quite unbalanced and also makes me sleepwalk! I take large amounts of palexia these days for the rib pain. I take 400mg a day, which according to my doctors is the equvialant of 200mg or morphine.

Which is odd. Because I was on 80mg a day of oramorph, then pain clinic started bull****ting on about how that was a dangerously high dose and started saying I needed to half it. At that stage I switched pain clinics as it was clear they were taking the piss tbh, thinking I could just half my pain meds and not have it effect my life in a very very negative way. Other pain clinic took me off oramorph completely and put me onto palexia. It appears, my GPs do not realise palexia is an opiate, as they have no problem prescribing huge doses..despite them also listening to the other pain clinic (I am convinced they were told their budget was cut so were trying to save cash, only thing that makes sense) who were saying that even 80mg a day of morphine was so so dangerous. However, in switching me from oramorph to palexia, they have more than doubled my morphine dose, from 80mg a day to 200mg! Which has helped considerably, but I am dreading when they click on to it and start taking this off me mind..

Another essay, but yeah. Pain issues still plague me like ****, even on 200mg morphine a day. Its quite effective for the rib pain mind..but only for short periods of time whilst its working, inbetween hours are still horrific. But luckily, I can usually work out how to go out with the kids and that. Work it around my morphine doses. Or sometimes, just take double dose while out..as long as its not a regular thing its fine. So I have a vague semblence of a life at the min, but only until the GP realises that they have me on a higher opiate dose than before

[Spoilering as massive and some will find it just..more going over old ground]




Sure, how?

Thanks for that. I'll reply in a pm

[AnnieK]

Originally Posted by Vicky.

Have gone into this on multiple threads so I kind of worry people are sick of hearing it

Spoiler:

I used to get this weird problem, where every now and again I got this horrific stabbing type pain in the right side of my ribs, that was worse when I moved and kind of felt like a bearhug at the same time..this would persist for a few hours then lessen up. The first time I got it I actually called an ambulance as the chest pain part scared me a bit, they ecg d me and that and said my chest was fine, though diagnosed something called costochondritus. I have since found out that was a misdiagnosis as the pains in the wronf place to be that..

Anyway, this went on months, with the pain coming on average once a month, nothing seemed to trigger it, it was just random. I dealt with it by..well just dealing with it when it happened.

However, after I had my son the pain was near constant. And increasing in intensity also. I was unable to even move for long periods of time due to it, again nothing seemed to trigger it, nothing seems to ease it..just nothing makes any difference. Was put on strong painkillers eventually while investigations were done. Eventually a consultant decided that the pain might be being cause by gallstones. So I was booked in for a removal. Was told the risks were slight, but various things could go wrong. Usual stuff for operations. However, there were complications.. my terrible luck would obviously make it so. It seemed it was only a small ish problem, that the surgeon had cu the wrong place and I had a bile leak. A few days of drains would see me fine. The pain of the drains, it was horrific. Again it hurt to even move at all and it felt like something was eating into my insides constantly..and this was ontop of the usual rib pain, which had not been budged at all by the op. Hospital decided I had been in too long so tried to discharge me..said the drain things could be cut and I could deal with them at home. I was in an absolutely ridiculous amount of pain at this point and absolutely was in no state to go home, I was in tears, unable to stand..my husband blatantly refused to take me home like that too. So they gave a shot of morphine and went to ask for a second opinion. Second doctor came and took one look at me, and sent me back down for emergency surgery. They had to reopen the holes and do a total washout apparently, unsure what else they did (only found out about the surgery while complaining about my treatment..as one of the reports said I had surgery aswell as a washout) but they did something! Turned out the whole time after the failed op..I had been leaking bile from another place the surgeon has ****ed up..and basically my body was drowning in it and being burnt all over..and that if I had not had the second opinion and got the required treatment, had I gone home like they were trying to pressure me to do (alls fine, the ains normal, just deal with it etc) I would have died there that night. Which is lovely.

To cut a very long story short..after all this was done with, I then still had the drain feeling in my chest a lot of the time, along with more burny tpe pain pretty much all over my ribcage. And the original pain too which they tried to write off as 'phantom pain' now as apparently people with gallbladder issues sometimes still gt the gallstone pain even after having no gallbladder, same as people can 'feel' legs that have been amputated and that. Eventually they did decide that it was never caused by me gallbladder mind..but now blatantly refuse to continue investigations into what it actually is. I am convinced it has to be omething to do with hormones, given the pain went way completely the whole time I was pregnant, then came back with a vegeance a month of so afterwards. Its the only thing that makes any sense to me, but they laugh at me for the suggestion

Basically, I now have both the stabbing/knifetwisting/bearhug type pain in my ribcage near constantly (sometimes get a few hours letup, where pain totally goes away for a bit, but it always comes back after some time..usually like 4-5 hours) along with the nerve damage from the failed operation. Honestly, the mix of them has me totally incapacitated a lot of the time. Medication helps somewhat, but it has its own issues, for example the pregablin I take for the nerve pain is quite effective, but it makes me weird and 'dreamy', quite unbalanced and also makes me sleepwalk! I take large amounts of palexia these days for the rib pain. I take 400mg a day, which according to my doctors is the equvialant of 200mg or morphine.

Which is odd. Because I was on 80mg a day of oramorph, then pain clinic started bull****ting on about how that was a dangerously high dose and started saying I needed to half it. At that stage I switched pain clinics as it was clear they were taking the piss tbh, thinking I could just half my pain meds and not have it effect my life in a very very negative way. Other pain clinic took me off oramorph completely and put me onto palexia. It appears, my GPs do not realise palexia is an opiate, as they have no problem prescribing huge doses..despite them also listening to the other pain clinic (I am convinced they were told their budget was cut so were trying to save cash, only thing that makes sense) who were saying that even 80mg a day of morphine was so so dangerous. However, in switching me from oramorph to palexia, they have more than doubled my morphine dose, from 80mg a day to 200mg! Which has helped considerably, but I am dreading when they click on to it and start taking this off me mind..

Another essay, but yeah. Pain issues still plague me like ****, even on 200mg morphine a day. Its quite effective for the rib pain mind..but only for short periods of time whilst its working, inbetween hours are still horrific. But luckily, I can usually work out how to go out with the kids and that. Work it around my morphine doses. Or sometimes, just take double dose while out..as long as its not a regular thing its fine. So I have a vague semblence of a life at the min, but only until the GP realises that they have me on a higher opiate dose than before

[Spoilering as massive and some will find it just..more going over old ground]




Sure, how?

That sounds horrific Vic, have you tried weed to manage the pain,? Or any other alternative therapies?

[Vicky.]

Originally Posted by Tony Montana

Any phobias you have?

Emetophobia (fear of vomit) is my only phobia. Not a good combination with young kids Luckily, when they have been ill, Gavin has been here to sort it. I have absolutely no idea how I would sort it if he was out..but I guess I wuld have to

Originally Posted by Tony Montana

Top 5 favourite Game of Thrones characters

Tyrion
Arya
Tormund
Davos
Olenna Tyrell

Originally Posted by Tony Montana

Top 5 least favourite Game of Thrones characters?

Joffrey
Ramsey
Greyworm (non idea why..just cannot stand him )
Theon
Margaery

Originally Posted by michael21

What you blood sugar level

When I have taken it previously, usually like 3 or so. Dint have one of the machine things to check now, but presumably that, mind I have had nowt to eat today yet because of pain so..might be lower.

Originally Posted by AnnieK

That sounds horrific Vic, have you tried weed to manage the pain,? Or any other alternative therapies?

Smoking weed seems to help. However with the kids..I don't feel comfortable smoking it constantly, especially as I get high really easily for some reason. Thats my go to solution if they are at grandads or something though, as it helps a lot.

Cannabis oils I have tried have made no difference at all.

Have been advised to try something called kratom, but it seems that gets people high too

Stuck between a rock and a hard place really. A few things do help, but I cannot realistically do them with young kids. So just have to attempt to deal with it the best I can with prescription drugs :/

[Twosugars]

Is parenthood all it's cracked up to be?
Are you Vicky first and then a mother or the other way round?

[Tony Montana]

Have you ever met any celebrities?

[Twosugars]

What do you watch on tv?
Favourite film and show of the last year?
Books?
Your go to websites ?

[Vicky.]

Originally Posted by Tony Montana

Have you ever met any celebrities?

Not really, unless BB housemates count as 'celebrites' I knew Charlie from bb10. Was someone in my drinking circle. Also vaguely knew Anthony from bb6, in a 'seen him when out and said hi once or twice' way. And Alex from bb12..was one of my sisters close friends too.

But actual celebs, nope.

Originally Posted by Twosugars

What do you watch on tv?

I don't watch TV as such, but on netflix at the min am watching spartacus. Have seen it before but on rewatch as have nowt new to see at the min. Just finished watching how to get away with murder which was fantastic. Also just finiushed gotham, which I didn't think I would like but loved. Watching the handmaids tale as it comes out (seems sporadic..) too.

Favourite film and show of the last year?

Wow, I literally can think of no films from last year at all. Have been to see aladdin this year though which was alright. I don't really do films these days, only ones that we take the kids to see really.

Show - in the same boat. I don't watch TV shows now that theres no BB. I didn't even watch BB properly in the final seasons tbh.

Books?

Game of thrones books are my current obsession Rereading them which is taking ages and ages but well worth it, the details in them is incerdible and so much better than the show. Besides that, my bookshelf is basically filled with trueblood books, vampire diaries, dexter and buffy

Your go to websites ?

Mumsnet is my go to site for most stuff. Its odd, as I always had a 'ew mumsnet, all about prams!' reaction to there, however I had never actually read anything on there to form that opinion..so the opinion came from others it seems. As it turns out, theres next to no discussion of 'mums' stuff. Its just a website mainly populated by women, discussing all things in life..politics, feminism, news stories, tv, whatever. I actually cannot believe I turned my nose up at it for so long, without even ever checking it out

Tibb would be my second choice. Used to be the first page I checked for everything. Not at the min, hopefully will get back to there.

Also when very bored, I still go on neopets I have mentioned this before. Its such an odd site these days, as it was created for college kids years back, but now, the players are all pretty much adults, on a site thats clearly designed for kids, especially since nickelodean bought it. Feels odd sometimes tbh, but its so bloody addictive I still check it every now and again as don't want to see my items go to waste..

[Tony Montana]

Any phobias you have?

[Tony Montana]

Top 5 favourite Game of Thrones characters

[Tony Montana]

Top 5 least favourite Game of Thrones characters?

[michael21]

What you blood sugar level

[AnnieK]

Have you met any TiBB members in real life?

[AnnieK]

If there was a TiBB meet up, would you go?

[Denver]

How was your time in prison?

[Denver]

Live to regret or regret to live?

[Kizzy]

Vicky! Love you one of the most real and genuine members here, you're refreshingly honest and heartfelt, flawed but flawless xxxx

Where in the world makes you happiest to be?
If you had to pick occupations for your kids now what would they be based on their personalities?

[Vicky.]

Originally Posted by Kizzy

Vicky! Love you one of the most real and genuine members here, you're refreshingly honest and heartfelt, flawed but flawless xxxx

Where in the world makes you happiest to be?

Presently, I am happiest when we are in Lanzarote and the kids are behaving. They tend to be much better on holiday, which kind of makes me want to be on a constant holiday.

Or maybe, even better, Lanzarote in March, when the kids stay with Grandad for a week and me and Gavin get adult time /badmother

If we had more cash, I would be happiest in Florida though. When I have gone in the past with my mum and dad, it was fantastic so I figure it would be just as good, if not better with my own kids.

Also a bit cliché answer, I am generally very happy in my own home. Just to be able to have somewhere to call my own and relax, and just..feels like its meant to be really. Like, coming back from a holiday into my house..really does feel like 'coming home'..you know? Not sure I am explaining right there..but yeah.

[Vicky.]

Originally Posted by Kizzy

If you had to pick occupations for your kids now what would they be based on there personalities?

Skye wants to be a hairdresser. She does my hair multiple times a day, to the point where its almost always greasy as she bloody touches it so much But based on her personality at the minute, I would say nurse. Shes very into helping people, and cuddling when people are down and stuff..something thats pretty new as for ages and ages she would not show any affection at all. She panicks and screams for plasters whenever James cuts himself, meanwhile hes running about shoving the blood in peoples faces to try and freak them out, not bothered in the slightest!

James, I don't know. Some kind of sports person maybe, or something where a lot of energy and a very loud personality are appreciated

[Kizzy]

Haha I'm with you on the coming home from holiday feeling you and hubby enjoy your 18-30 heehee
Aw bless wish mine were still that lil, they sound like a right pair of monkeys

[Beso]

Hi Vicky. ...why did you not name the person you would perma ban?

Why did you spread further paranoia acroos the forum with that statement?

[Vicky.]

Originally Posted by michael21

Are you sexy

If yes do you plan on bringing sexy back

Erm, probably not by most peoples standards

Originally Posted by michael21

What your fab number

Fave number? 11..for some reason.

Originally Posted by michael21

What you fav color

Black..

Originally Posted by michael21

Do you like cat

NO

Originally Posted by michael21

Do you like dogs

Some. In general probably yes.