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parmnion · 10-12-2022, 09:38 PM

My boy.

Loved by all who knew him..a peace maker, chelsea fan...my boy billy.
Born 12/7/96
Died 23/20/2012.

Dont ever question me!!

I post from the heart, ALWAYS

Swan · 10-12-2022, 09:41 PM

Im so sorry mate!

Can i just say, im so glad he got to see Chelsea first CL win. I bet he was over the moon, like we all were.

My heart goes out to you buddy.

Love and support!

joeysteele · 10-12-2022, 09:43 PM

Thinking of you parmnion.

Cherie · 10-12-2022, 10:06 PM

You should always talk about your son

Your boy

Strictly Jake · 10-12-2022, 10:18 PM

Love ya Parm. He will always be in your heart.

parmnion · 10-12-2022, 10:23 PM

Thanks guys..the 23/20/12 should read...22/10/2012

Certainly a day that an ex tibb poster saved my life, her and her dad.

Her dad, who in the short space of time of knowing him at the time, had already instilled a degree of parenting that I had never imagined I me.

Ronald!! Ronald....

Ray Winstons double, only difference is ronald is more west ham than ray.

Ronald had me weeping weeping like a sad toad in the clutches of an evil monkey and its twitching penis, ..only I was half way up the A1, in a pit stop walking through the concourse with Ronald on the phone as I'm trying to hold it together

Old parmy here was a ****ing snivelling wreck..

Who was there for me though then eh...2012....

Al tell you who..yes I bloody will..!

An ex forum user called watchingittoomuch...I travveld 500 miles for her, it was an easy decision!!

But my god, when My step son phoned me at about 7.30 on that day to tell me his step brother, my ****ing son..Billy was "it's not looking good"

I was getting dropped of at work from watching ittoomuxh..

I will call her nic from now on..

Nic, you know what she done?

She rammed that car into reverse and combated her aches and pains into a 500 mile trip on that same day.

Right there and then. No questions asked

Her dad checking us half way up to see if I'm ok, *awright san*

I do, I appreciate you all TIBB..but some folk still love pressing that report button on others

Imagine though, imagine being raffs old tibb pal, one of tibbs originals...and you end up having to drive parm....or parmy, (whatever your multi prefer) a few years later, back up the road cause his son died from taking legal highs..

Zizu · 10-12-2022, 10:39 PM

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Originally Posted by parmnion

My boy.

Loved by all who knew him..a peace maker, chelsea fan...my boy billy.
Born 12/7/96
Died 23/20/2012.

Dont ever question me!!

I post from the heart, ALWAYS

So sorry to hear this my friend ..

I’m honestly lost for words . I feel lost sometimes and our son is just in the US

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parmnion · 10-12-2022, 10:51 PM

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Originally Posted by Zizu

So sorry to hear this my friend ..

I’m honestly lost for words . I feel lost sometimes and our son is just in the US

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An easy thing for me to say is, "be thankful you know where he is"

But for you that's half the worry.

In a way, and its disgusting for me to think this way, but I wrestle these thoughts every night as I try to sleep, ..in a way, I dont have that worry..

I need help..I need help to stop smoking weed every spare minute I've got that isnt work...I work every week day...hahaha..week day yeah every day i work, and every day is a weak day..I either start my working day chirpy fresh as a daisy.....or 100 percent end it chirpy, straight to a joint and a drink..

I wasnt like that in the summer..so wtf+!!

Kate! · 11-12-2022, 01:11 AM

A poem for you Parmy....I found it online.

The blue skies turn to grey.
No more stories.
You've gone away.

The echoes of your smile,
Your kindness, your love.
Everything that made life worthwhile
Crashed down like a dove.

But memories will never fade.
Like a light that guides me,
Your love, your beauty
Will always find me...
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You'll always have your memories Parm, but I know that's little compensation. It's so hard to lose a loved one but a child must be worst of all. You're such a lovely fella. I feel for you. God bless.

Zizu · 11-12-2022, 01:29 AM

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Originally Posted by parmnion

An easy thing for me to say is, "be thankful you know where he is"

But for you that's half the worry.

In a way, and its disgusting for me to think this way, but I wrestle these thoughts every night as I try to sleep, ..in a way, I dont have that worry..

I need help..I need help to stop smoking weed every spare minute I've got that isnt work...I work every week day...hahaha..week day yeah every day i work, and every day is a weak day..I either start my working day chirpy fresh as a daisy.....or 100 percent end it chirpy, straight to a joint and a drink..

I wasnt like that in the summer..so wtf+!!

The last two or so years have been immensely tough and even now we are going through such difficult times and nearly everyone I know is struggling in some way or another - sadly so much about the life these days seems either damaged or completely broken .

The good news is that things have to start getting better soon and that’s what has to keep us all going !

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Kate! · 11-12-2022, 01:31 AM

Zizu.....

Mystic Mock · 11-12-2022, 03:11 AM

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Originally Posted by Zizu

The last two or so years have been immensely tough and even now we are going through such difficult times and nearly everyone I know is struggling in some way or another - sadly so much about the life these days seems either damaged or completely broken .

The good news is that things have to start getting better soon and that’s what has to keep us all going !

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This.

Personally speaking I don't think that I've ever been so personally angry at society before like I have since the Pandemic happened.

But honestly Parmnion, I'm sorry to hear about your son, I think he would've been 26 this year wouldn't he? Because that's the same age as myself if that's the case.

Hopefully he is doing well in another plain of existence, if you believe in that anyway.

AnnieK · 11-12-2022, 06:11 AM

Parm

What you have posted about is every parent's biggest fear, losing their children and you have lived it. My heart breaks for you. No words from us will ever make it better but hopefully you can feel the sincerity of people on here.

You need to get a grip of the weed and drinking but probably best to speak to someone. Has it got worse since you moved back home? Might just be a period of adjustment you're going though.

Take care and take it easy.....we're just anonymous people on here mostly but people do care

Kazanne · 11-12-2022, 09:59 AM

So sorry to hear about your son Parmy,I can't think of anything worse that losing a child, he will live on in your heart and the memories you made are forever, great big hugs xxx

UserSince2005 · 11-12-2022, 10:18 AM

What happened to him?

jet · 11-12-2022, 12:20 PM

Oh Parmy, I am so sorry that you lost your beloved son. I can’t offer any better words of comfort than the lovely messages of support other members have given you already, but…PLEASE LOOK AFTER YOURSELF. Your son would want that. You have such a good heart and you deserve peace and happiness. We love you.

rusticgal · 11-12-2022, 01:09 PM

Parmy I am so sorry for your loss. To lose a child must be the hardest loss to come to terms with.
None of us know what is going on in peoples lives when we chat away on here.

Big hugs Parmy...

....always here if you need me x