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Lily Allen says: 'I won't quit drug taking'









Lily Allen has confessed she may never be able to give up her use of drugs despite revealing in an emotional interview a vow to clean up after she discovered she was pregnant.

Speaking to US media, the unusually subdued party queen revealed: 'I'm not gonna say I'm never gonna do drugs again.'

'I just know I'm not a good person on drugs.'

The 23-year-old's concerns come just days after she was picture throwing punches at bystanders during a 2am bender in London.

In the past, Allen has confessed her drug taking started with ecstasy at age 14.

The Smile singer now says she attempted to give up her binges after she found out she was carrying her then boyfriend, Ed Simons of the Chemical Brothers, baby.

Allen was reportedly treated for depression after suffering a miscarriage a few weeks in. Now she tells says: 'It was the hardest thing for me.'

'When I realised I was pregnant and realised I wanted to have the baby, I made a huge decision – to make my life more stable.'

The star admits to even shocking herself with her bad vice indulgence, recalling herself being hauled out of this years Glamour Women of the Year Awards, inebriated and unconscious.

'I can't believe I got in that state…Because it is totally not in my repertoire to do something like that. I'm actually a bit of control freak', she says.

Famed for her down-heartened blog postings, Lily confesses to ongoing self esteem issues admitting she thinks her own music is 'bad' and that she has a tendency to run from her problems.

'My therapist says one of my coping mechanisms is to always be thinking of a way out.'

On her insatiable pop hits, Allen tells Paper magazine: 'I wake up every day and think I'm actually pretty bad at it. I work hard at getting better. But if this record flops, I'll probably go back to school. I've always liked architecture.'

Earlier this week the star wrote on her MySpace blog that her second album is now complete but is being stalled by record label EMI.

Finally she then attacks her own trademark chav chic, telling: 'I'm not killing it with my look right now. I'm not feeling a hundred percent comfortable with it.'


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