[Arneldo]

...but I really need people to talk some sense into me and I just really need to vent my emotions lol

I've got this mate who I only really got to know in the past year, but in like the past month I've really started to fancy him. It's not even just his looks, its everything. It's gotten to the point where I really cannot get him off my mind. I cant concentrate on anything - no joke. Anyway, I don't want to fancy him at all. I even tried to ignore him so that I would just not be around him but it didn't work at all. I just wanted to be around him more. He is on of my best mates, and one of the first people I told was gay. He is so sound and I would trust him with anything. Anyway - as usual, he's straight and last night we were at a party and he got it on with a girl we know but I just burst into tears. Nobody saw, thank god but I just could not help it. He told once, in is drunken state, that he was bi but I think he said it to make me feel better cause I was very upset at the moment. Last night I needed somebody to talk to about it so I text my mate but she just didn't get how bad it is and all morning shes been gettin me to try and hook him up with the girl he was with - which has again made me cry. I'm never like this ever - and I don't want to fancy him at all.

Argh ...