Are you feeling better?

...I carry a pencil and pad everywhere and all of the time because I'm hopeless at remembering stuff if something inspires me when I'm out and about and then it's really annoying when you get home and know you had some words in your head but YOU CAN'T REMEMBER THEM.....

..whether today be a word filled one or not, may it be a beautiful day for you....

..what I always think with writer's block is to just let it happen and don't try to force it because you can block more if you do that, you know...I guess it's a little like when you really want to sleep, need to sleep because you have to be awake early in the morning for some reason...and you're thinking...sleep/sleep now, relax etc and you're trying to force it..?..the mose you do that, then the less likely sleep will come because you're so conscious of it and not really relaxed at all, which is what you need to sleep...also it's like everything I think in life Germyle, you need the blocks as well and the balance of them because you get so much energy out of them for those 'flow' times..if it flowed all of the time, we probably couldn't cope with it and it would actually lose it's meaning quite a bit and not be so good...

I was scalped

..of course, perfection is impossible because perfection has no flaws and that could never be...and would we want it to be/would we want perfection even if we could have it or achieve it, Germyle...what would we learn from perfection, where would our heart be in perfection..?...it's our flaws and imperfections that make us who we are and it's our imperfection and flaws that give us our beauty...and it's those imperfection and flaws that will make your songs perfect....sorry, I'm so rushed this morning but you have an imperfect but beautiful day.....

..I'm not sure if I'm a perfectionist Germyle...because even being or feeling that I was o at something would be good for me but I know, I think in most things, there is no one more hard on ourselves than us and we're our worst enemies in many ways...we worry so much about stuff when that stuff hasn't even happened yet, if you know what I mean and drive ourselves crazy overthinking things...but yeah, I think for me in general, is more just clearing stuff out rather than trying to 'create', just whatever I'm thinking and whatever rubbish it is in my head, it's just getting it out of there and things I write..(to make space for more rubbish and jumbled thoughts....)...

..I write mainly poetry and rubbish stuff but I did start to write a book a while ago/quite a few years now but I got stuck a bit on the beginning because I waffle too much and it starts with the family having breakfast together/just an ordinary day type thing and chatting etc /just an average family...but then I couldn't get them out of the house and on to the next bit..they just sat there having breakfast for ages/days I think and all different types of cereal and toast and muffins and everything but I just couldn't move them out of the kitchen...that was the tricky bit...oooops...

....oooops, three messages, I'm hopeless/too many words...