I don't even know what I'm doing rn

Ahh in all seriousness I did keep genuinely thinking "well maybe I'll just try and wait till I'm 25 for better money" Still thought I'd end up actually working before then though lol. The only bad thing about that is that people usually prefer hiring someone younger for less wages to pay

Nahhh I don't think so Maybe I would have done if I'd won that golf bet today but seeing as I don't know anything about them then probs not. Actually I don't even know if I have that section on my site I'm gonna have a look now

Nice @ the same bet Hopefully they don't disappoint and pull through tomorrow for us

Gahh yeah it sucks so bad during those times definitely </3 If I lose out (still on a lot smaller amounts) I literally usually just try to sleep because that's the only way I'll get over it I'm sure you'll feel a little better tomorrow tho

Wow that's crazy @ being even more So the busier/more active the site the more $ potential I guess? Yeah that's a hell of a lot of money to win just like that, would be sooo nice though. Ugh that's ****ty at the loss on there tho, $320 seems like such a big entry price compared to the usual ones too.

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That's goooood @ being 25 soon then for the higher wage. That's what you were waiting for?

Yeah fruit punch is def not healthy at all lol, it's not even like legit juice but it'd still classify as a juice But I don't drink it often either it's just really good! Yesss @ tomato sauce anything else tomato NO

Lmaooo @ searching the pic of the winner I have He's the favorite to win so hopefully he pulls through You won't throw a bet on him / any of the drivers?

& let's go indeed (it's actually same exact odds this time, I checked $4 & it was $9.43 return!)

Not "I didn't even know those sorts of wins would exist" There's a lot bigger than that in IRL casino tournaments & even on this site from what I'm seeing. But they literally don't exist on the two sites I play on tho (maybe like $10-12,000 1st place at most for some of the biggest ones) but for some reason this 3rd site gets crazy traffic/turnouts. Yup also poker. Would be pretty wild getting the 1st place win in that one, I wouldn't even know what to do I've now lost $400 on that site already in just 3 tournaments played mainly cause of that $320 one I tried today Idk if I'll give the site another chance but prob not, I've just never been able to do well on it even when it was a much smaller site back in the day.

Literally still lost close to $2,000 in 2 days... like yikes I calmed down with some video games just now too but still, feel sick again every time I remember these losses. Just dumb, dumb, dumb Literally shaking my head just thinking about it again. The amount of times I've shook my head, slammed **** & cursed today = when gambling isn't fun SMH

Wow it's crazy how quick it can be won/lost but that's nice you made a bit back already off of that Yes @ the limits! But yeah still overall I can imagine it must be a really ****ty feeling after all that </3

Omg @ those prizes That's crazy, I didn't even know those sorts of wins would exist. Is that for poker again as well?

Oh and I got this screenshot earlier but was too mad to even get into it before. I tried THIS $320 tournament on the new site I joined, the payouts are WILD. Imma be SO tempted to play it more often but I really can't be doing that lol

I just won $350 back so quickly making $50 bets in blackjack and I actually feel so calm now after I was SOOOO pissed an hour ago I prob didn't even seem as mad as I actually just was (btw I wasn't gonna go crazy losing a lot more money, I said to myself I would lose $100 max there & quit if I did and as soon as I hit $200+ I'd also quit after my first loss (literally won 4 in a row after hitting $200 until I finally lost one). It felt amazing even tho I've still lost so much more money than that today still sksk It was more around -$1,600 so -$1,250ish now which is still awful tho nnnn now I'm feeling a bit more heated again thinking about it

Yeah a break is needed. It gets exhausting too playing too many days per week and I've been going OTT with it.

No no nooooo That sucks SO bad. It seems like you just got super unlucky again which is so disappointing when that kinda stuff happens with being so close AGAIN to the top $ </3 I guess it's similar to when you think "just one more try" because there's always a chance you can win some/even more back especially with poker & you weren't to know that wouldn't happen this time, so it's easy to think looking back but not really in the moment

But yep I'm sure a break will feel really good/refreshing for when you go back into it & as you said there's still the other tournament too which is another good chance and has potential for a nice win

I couldn't make decisions easily at all for these games, they're gonna be really close tomorrow I think because there's a mix up of players (who are some of the most equal imo)