[Josy]

This is quotes from tonight's highlights so don't read if you would rather wait..

Spoiler:

Helen talks to Ash about her past:

Ash: “So basically, you think that people outside will say to me ‘why are you talking to her’ because of something you’ve done?”
Helen: “Yeah…”
Ash: “Just tell me, you might as well…”
Helen: “Right, last night you know when I got a bit over the top about Danielle thing with media and stuff? Basically, I was drunk and stuff and I blew it all out of proportion. Why I was saying the whole ‘you go to a ******ing paper and sell stuff on your friend…’ that’s what got done to me...”
Ash: “About what?”
Helen: “About sleeping with someone…”
Ash: “Who was it?”
Helen: “I can’t say…I actually can’t say”

Ash: “Right, you’re saying you sold a story?”
Helen: “I didn’t, no… Someone was involved and we agreed not to tell anyone about what we’d done. A year later she got in touch with me, she was like the press has been in touch and they’ve heard. I was like ‘how did they hear?’…because he’s not told anyone, he’s ****ing married’
Ash: “So, you slept with someone who’s married?”
Helen: “Yeah”
Ash: “Who’s a celebrity?”
Helen: “Yeah”
Ash: “Well, why did you do that?”
Helen: “Because I did”
Ash: “And how long was that?”
Helen: “Like four years ago…”
Ash: “So why are you bothered about it now?”
Helen: “It massively bothers me because I’ve never escaped it… When people say ‘oh go and sell something in the newspaper’, I’m like ‘why do you see it as such a ******ing trivial thing…do you understand what it does to people’s lives’? I don’t want you to see stuff and hear stuff and be like ‘well she wasn’t who I thought she was’ because that’s not the case…it was years ago and it was all out of my control when it happened and I have made massive, massive mistakes that I do regret”
Ash: “Was you like with your ex when you did it or what?”
Helen: “No, it was my job”
Ash: “What do you mean?”
Helen: “Well, can you not guess?”
Ash: “Really?! Oh right, so that’s why you’re worried about it?”
Helen: “No, not about that, I’m not bothered about that. It was just a ******ing sh*t spell that I went through and I did stupid things for stupid reasons but…oh god what am I doing? Why am I talking about this? Why am I talking about this? I never thought this conversation would ever come up here… It’s not guilty because I don’t fu**king owe anyone an explanation but I just thought if I do want to see these people am I really meant to sit here and ******ing hide the fact that when they get out there going to see loads of stuff’’