[Yuki Maru Hoshi]

I have so many side effects with birth control so really didn't try taking it until I was older. I tried one that I had hoped I'd tolerate better since it was supposed to simulate our actual hormones, ie, adjust itself throughout the month, and ended up with serious short term memory loss and not being able to drive for about a year. Can only imagine if someone had tried to put me on puberty blockers in my youth. I really don't think I'd be here with the way I respond to certain meds if that were the case. I knew friends who were getting prescribed things left and right for their issues when we are all in our preteens when depression/etc was just beginning to become a major concern...

And I'm sure bad responses to medication will just get sorted out as part of the overall trans suicide statistic rather than found out as a bad response to medication. The suicidal thoughts while on certain meds is actually a real thing. There was a medication I was on that was newer for an issue I had that gave me suicidal thoughts at about the same time everyday based on when I took my medication (usually night before)... it didn't do anything to me emotionally so it was just bizarre, but it was there cognitively in a very overt way and would last for about an hour. Almost like the brain would tune into a radio station where cognitively everything I was reading, listening to, or thinking was being dosed with this weird feeling of "meh, it's all meaningless, never-ending, horrible stuff, etc... should just end it now", etc... so yeah, that is a thing. For me, it was just bizarre, but I wonder if someone is vulnerable if they would have a worse response... how would they be able to tell the difference between bad reactions to medication and actual suicidal thoughts?... Hormones can do crazy unexpected things to the body and mind without medications, especially to women...