[Conzors]

And i thought i would be okay but i've really felt something different. I've felt sad, and just havent performed well at work - my flats a mess and it's just been a bit weird!

I wasn't close with him, but i knew him all my life and it just came as a shock!
My 21st Party is on the 7th June, and his funeral is on the 9th so the day after my party we have to travel up there and STAY IN THE HOUSE THAT HE DIED IN, and thats just freaked me out.

I just dont know how to re-act or how to snap out of this.

Am i subconsciously using this as an excuse for attention?
Am i actually sad and just acting like this?
Am i just shocked and my body cant take it?

I HAVE NO IDEA.

Has anything ever happened to you and you acted in a totally different way that you'd imagine?
xxx