[Gstar]

Losing your nan is literally the worst thing ever. It's a good idea to keep yourself distracted/get a new hobby so you're going the right way about it. Time is truly the greatest healer.

P.s. This is really random but Leona Lewis - Better In Time is the song that mostly describes your situation, same with mine when I lost my nan. I'm sure you're aware of the song, it's very emotional but thought I'd still tell you. Most underrated song ever.