[Captain.Remy]

Kind of not confident/sky/weird little child who realized he liked girls and boys until I started rugby at 6. Then I became more confident and started walking around like I owned the room, but still being not so confident. I used to talk a lot too, very chatty. I would give my parents a migraine every two days due to talking too much
Also, playing sports and feeling "guilty" of my sexuality (not anymore), I had this double persona of a team leader and introvert, and people didn't fully know me. So a lot of things I liked, I did them in private.
Then in my teens, I kinda went off the rails a little bit while being a good student. Mostly partying, doing a lot of stuff. Moving to the UK early in my teenage years definitely helped finding myself and be more free and confident in who I am.

And funny thing is, I got married two weeks ago and the day after I really felt validated within myself, like I really did achieve something for someone to love me and be fully engaged. All those childhood memories came back and I thought "You were so stupid for hidding many things about yourself back then. Don't do it ever again, you're fine".