[Shaun]

I'm considering it.

I think I may be bipolar, or just plain depressed lol. I keep having recurring dreams about my late brother & father and waking up from them just always leaves me... I don't know, but it just puts me in a down mood for the rest of the day.

I also feel like there isn't anyone I want to or can talk to about it... especially my family because my mum was actually diagnosed with depression and had almost a year off work because of it so I feel like it'd be taking the piss. "Hi mum yeah you know how your firstborn died and you feel like a failed parent? Well I sometimes can't sleep..." you know? And I've always had difficulty expressing these things to friends, I think that's why I spill so much to people on here. And then I just get more down because it feels like no one cares, but really it's just my fault because I don't feel like I can open up.

But yeah... The stigma of "getting counselling" definitely puts me off.