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Originally Posted by Twosugars

Well, my depression is not psychotic (thank god for small mercies) so looks like I can forget ECT.


Here is a link to a simple test for depression. Nothing fancy, just assessment of your mood.

https://psychcentral.com/quizzes/depression-quiz/

My score was 68, severe depression.
Have a look, worth getting an idea about yourself.

I scored 9 and then redid it for how I was approx 18 months / 2 years ago; I scored 51. So it turns out there is hope? I actually think I made a thread about it in the private section which I would never normally do so that should say something - and also, it was much, much worse than what I was describing there, I was playing it down a lot. I had what I believe is called a "major acute depressive episode"... which also resolved pretty spontaneously, which it apparently often does. I can't imagine battling with something like that for years non stop, tbqfh. The only real knock-on effect has been that I get stressed much more easily (in genuinely stressful situations) and tend to go worst-case-scenario immediately;

"Ugh you just got flashed by that speed camera... YOU'RE GUNNA LOSE YOUR LICENSE AND OUR LIVES WILL BE RUUUIIINEDDD!!!"

Though I've never really been an optimist .