[Nicky91]

well ok sorry for acting like one big mess


but i'm getting more and more depressed if i don't win anything else, and yes true having fun is also important, but i admit i am extremely competitive till the point where it gets unhealthy


and not winning, getting eliminated, only makes me more stressed and makes me overthink that others think of me as some loser, that is why i want to win so badly all the time

it makes me cry