[Munchkins]

I'm copying my posts from the sexuality thread and adding some more, but i really feel like making a thread about how i feel, to see if anyone else feels the same, it's just so odd
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I absolutely love men ok, that's clear, i am so attracted to them
However though as much as i like men, i dont ever think i want to date and its really difficult. The thought of me succombing and allowing myself to completely be someones other half, makes me just feel ill, i just never want to give myself to someone.. and it's not just about being scared of getting hurt, which i am! i just could never desire to wanting to be someones forever.. and having that full time commitment which is just awful, i like my independence, and i just don't think id ever fit a relationship.

Also my OCD is so bad, and i think i'd always judge someone? id never feel they were good enough, i'd always pick faults in either them, to get myself out of the situation, or would think i'm not good enough, no matter how much they liked me.. and im just too clingy id either be standoffish in an effort not to be.. or would just be an irritant.
basically im not cut out to date someone, and thats just how it is
And it all just hit me last night, i was just laying in bed and i just thought omfg i never ever want to date someone? even if someone was perfect in every shape or form, id never want to be with them romantically or anything, yeah i may find them sexually attractive, but thats all, i still wouldn't do anything with them, it just repulses me

People may say you're only 16 you can't know for sure, but i do and its quite a depressing thought that i will live alone and eventhough i'm fine with it, it is going to be odd and i don't know how people will react. I can't define myself as Asexual i dont think, because i do find people sexually attractive just i'd never want to be with someone, like i could kiss someone, but i would never want it to go further than that ever, and so i dont even want to kiss people as its leading them on? as i will never go further. People know they're gay at 16, so how can i know i dont want to be with someone
No-one else i know feels the same and this thread is so incoherent but still

If you read this essay i applaud you LOL

[Drew.]

you need to applaud me

[Apple202]

tl dr

[Apple202]

oj love you x

[Ninastar]

when I was 16, I said if I was gay i'd kill myself

honestly, don't worry about it. things like this take a long ass time to sort out

[Stu]

You're a late bloomer. You're not going to be the person that's in a different relationship every year. Every few months. That's far from a bad thing.

All these fears you have about being too critical of people, not thinking you're good enough etc ... that's all the stuff that vanishes when you do eventually meet someone you really give a damn about.

I know it's hard to imagine but unless you plan on spending the rest of your life alone in your bedroom you will eventually run in to someone who will challenge you and change you for the better.

[Kazanne]

You're young yet and it's good to be independant at such a young age and nothing wrong with not wanting to give yourself to anyone yet,when you meet the right person that will all come,hats off to you for your saying what is on your mine,Do whatever makes you happy,whether it fits in with the stereotypical teenager or not,be youself,be different ,just be happy.

[Munchkins]

Originally Posted by Stu

You're a late bloomer. You're not going to be the person that's in a different relationship every year. Every few months. That's far from a bad thing.

All these fears you have about being too critical of people, not thinking you're good enough etc ... that's all the stuff that vanishes when you do eventually meet someone you really give a damn about.

I know it's hard to imagine but unless you plan on spending the rest of your life alone in your bedroom you will eventually run in to someone who will challenge you and change you for the better.

I've been with one person for a while (well i was only like 14/15 but still!), and after he cheated on me and stuff, ironically because i wouldn't do anything sexually, it repulsed me (tmi) that probably did make me critical of everything, but i just genuinely do think i will never want to go with someone
it would be nice to change though, but i doubt it

[Jack_]

There's no use worrying about it cause you'll only make yourself feel worse. Just take life as it comes, the chances are highly likely that one day you'll meet someone who you'll just have a connection with, and it'll get to the point where you'll either be so far ahead of where you are now that you'll go with it anyway or you won't be able to help going with it even if you don't want to. I genuinely believe that. This is long-term I'm talking here, not in the next year. But then who knows?

Just accept how you are for now and understand that in the future things will come along that'll question what you've instilled in yourself and could possibly change all of this completely. There is nothing to gain from thinking twenty, thirty years ahead about the possibility of being alone because of the feelings you've described. Nobody can see that far into the future.

[Munchkins]

Thanks everyone who commented
good to know some people actually took the time to read it, ive tried to explaining to real life friends but they think its slutty not wanting commitment :L

[Marcus.]

Originally Posted by Munchkins

Thanks everyone who commented
good to know some people actually took the time to read it, ive tried to explaining to real life friends but they think its slutty not wanting commitment :L

it your choice for what ever you do

[Mystic Mock]

Originally Posted by Munchkins

I'm copying my posts from the sexuality thread and adding some more, but i really feel like making a thread about how i feel, to see if anyone else feels the same, it's just so odd
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I absolutely love men ok, that's clear, i am so attracted to them
However though as much as i like men, i dont ever think i want to date and its really difficult. The thought of me succombing and allowing myself to completely be someones other half, makes me just feel ill, i just never want to give myself to someone.. and it's not just about being scared of getting hurt, which i am! i just could never desire to wanting to be someones forever.. and having that full time commitment which is just awful, i like my independence, and i just don't think id ever fit a relationship.

Also my OCD is so bad, and i think i'd always judge someone? id never feel they were good enough, i'd always pick faults in either them, to get myself out of the situation, or would think i'm not good enough, no matter how much they liked me.. and im just too clingy id either be standoffish in an effort not to be.. or would just be an irritant.
basically im not cut out to date someone, and thats just how it is
And it all just hit me last night, i was just laying in bed and i just thought omfg i never ever want to date someone? even if someone was perfect in every shape or form, id never want to be with them romantically or anything, yeah i may find them sexually attractive, but thats all, i still wouldn't do anything with them, it just repulses me

People may say you're only 16 you can't know for sure, but i do and its quite a depressing thought that i will live alone and eventhough i'm fine with it, it is going to be odd and i don't know how people will react. I can't define myself as Asexual i dont think, because i do find people sexually attractive just i'd never want to be with someone, like i could kiss someone, but i would never want it to go further than that ever, and so i dont even want to kiss people as its leading them on? as i will never go further. People know they're gay at 16, so how can i know i dont want to be with someone
No-one else i know feels the same and this thread is so incoherent but still

If you read this essay i applaud you LOL

I get what your saying Munchkins, but I don't think people would give up on you due to your OCD behavior, and also you've got more of a chance of getting boyfriend than me ever getting a girlfriend as I'm just too weird for people.

But then me and other people have said I'm a bit messed up anyway.

All I can say is Munchkins is that you'll find yourself eventually.

[Stu]

It's quite possible of course that you're completely normal and simply reveling in your own image as a mental nutter, Mock .

[Fetch The Bolt Cutters]

Originally Posted by The Mockinator

In Year 1 of Primary School I smashed a girls head down on the table for no reason whatsoever

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[Mystic Mock]

Originally Posted by Scott

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See even Scott knows I'm nuts, although that was a behavior of a thug what I did, I would never do that again.

[Apple202]

Originally Posted by Scott

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[Munchkins]

I threw sand from the sandpit in someones eyes in year reception p and i'm not a nutcase (or maybe i am)

[Stu]

Year one of primary school. So one would be what ... 5? 6? Boys and girls always beat each other up at that age.

Relax. You're not exactly Virginia Tech.

[Jake.]

Aw Munch, you're not going to feel like that forever, you will eventually get to a stage where it all goes

[Munchkins]

Originally Posted by JH95

Aw Munch, you're not going to feel like that forever, you will eventually get to a stage where it all goes

Hmmm maybe, its just quite depressing and it keeps hitting me! D;

[armand.kay]

I feel you! I don't really trust people enough to get in a proper relationship I've only been out with one person and that was just a physical attraction I've never really opened myself up to anyone. I also think I have commitment issues coz the thought of being in a serious relationship is scary :/

[Jessica.]

I don't think anyone needs to define themselves tbh, I think you should just go with the flow and be yourself and don't stick with thinking you will be alone forever, if you think like that then it's more likely to happen, just be open and do whatever you are comfortable with, also, you shouldn't think all guys are the same from your bad experience. Good luck!

[InOne]

Who is the girl in your avatar Munchkins?

[smeagol]

you wont always feel that way one day your meet someone and everything else wont matter. and one day you may wish you still did feel like you do now lol
you seem a nice person . be happy first the rest will follow naturally .

[Novo]

Mock is probably planning a mass murder spree as we speak whilst Stu is trying to reassure him that he is perfectly Normal