[mizzy25]

I lost my mam in 2012 and to be honest the 1st year after was a complete blur I do remember mine and my sisters emotions being all over the place, one minute we would be crying, next hysterically laughing about something. One fantasic memory that I do have is that the last time I saw my mam we had a really good laugh about something ridiculous and I wasn't even supposed to see her that day. I just called in on the fri as I was bored ended up staying for tea and having a great time, she died on the mon. I also take comfort in the fact that she didn't really suffer and I know she would have hated ending up in a nursing home, that would have killed her. its been a year and a half now and im sort of getting on with things now. Then last bloody Mon I lost my oldest dog, I know some people wont think its the same but god I was very upset he was just over 13 years old and as we bred him ourselves he was with us from day 1, he had a stroke and his kidneys were failing. I can say that he led a very happy life his tail was constantly wagging. I swear I saw him on the sofa on Tues the day after so @ the mo I feel like hes still with me.