[armand.kay]

Originally Posted by Firewire

I feel very lonely in real life but I try to stop it from bothering me. I have friends but I've never had a best friend. I don't have anyone in real life I can call or text when I need someone to talk to, I don't have anyone I can go to the cinema with, etc. I have uni friends (as a group) and I have friends from school (but they all have someone else whether it be a boyfriend or another friend). I don't have any male friends and I really would like some. But then I think about things I have that other people don't and I try not to let it bother me.

I sometimes fee like this, I feel like my family just tolerate me because they have to and although I have two really close friends sometimes I feel like I'm the thirst wheel and they don't wanna be around me to the extent that I've cancelled plans and stuff. I know its all in my head and a bit irrational but once I've convinced myself it takes a while to get out that frame of mind lol