[Jamie585]

Originally Posted by ukturtle

Ahh, don't stress. You'll find a good circle of friends when the time is right, focus on your studies for the time being. Glad to see you are doing well, buddy.

Hopefully when I leave and start a fresh, Thanks!

[Raph]

Shaun, it was really nice reading through your post, thanks for sharing that with us. It looks like you've really been through a lot and I just see you in a different way now, sort of like really respect what you've been through kind of thing. You must be a really strong person.

[Raph]

Originally Posted by Lee.

What an awfully nice person you sound

Aw thanks buddy!

[Jake.]

2007- My nan had died in 2006 which had affected me in so many ways. Basically, before that, I was fat, pretty fat indeed. My nan dying and me giving up meat (idk why i saw some programm where gordon ramsey was killing his pet lamb and i felt sick) ****ed me up a bit. Constant panic attacks through 2006/7, couldn't eat properly due to the fear of choking (couldn't even eat a soup with bread at one point) and always thought I'd lose breath. Wasn't liked in secondary school in 2006/7, bullied pretty badly.
2008- Made some more friends in secondary school, was getting better. My grandad died, which wasn't easy. Still didn't have the most friends in the world tbh.
2009- Things seemed to get better. Fell in with a group, played football during lunch at school, made more friends than before, it just seemed like a good year. Was year 9 in school I think, so yeah, a bit of a dos year but I enjoyed it.
2010- Once again, things on the up. Always having a joke about and stuff, yeah went pretty well. Moved into the place im in now (and Im moving in 2 weeks again )
2011- I liked last year. Not much went on but it was my last year before 6th form/college, had a good time in general, socialised more etc
2012- Earlier on in the year I made friends with the people I now love. One of them, we just get on, can't imagine us arguing because we are so alike in humor that we don't take eachother seriously. Left sixth form after one year in june and now go college, regret it sometimes as I miss the people, but moving in 2 weeks so will be right near them! Lost quite a bit of weight this year, and recieved some compliments which is always nice!

So yeah, thats my five years!

[Z]

2007 - I'd have been sitting my first set of exams then... I remember being pretty happy for the most part, I got through school with As and Bs, never in trouble at school, I had my circle of friends like most people my age, but I've always been quite an introverted person and I spent a lot of time alone in my room after school, usually on the internet.

2008 - Highers are the most important exams for Scottish kids 'cause they determine whether or not you'll get into uni (as opposed to England where it's your final year of school where that kinda thing is decided) - I got 5As so I was pretty chuffed with that. My friend group totally fractured and there were sort of 5 of us who were kinda the core group and I feel pretty bad looking back, because most of the rest of my friends who I'm still friends with today were excluded from that... by the end of the school year, one of those five had ditched us for another group of friends and it all ended pretty badly, a lot of negativity at school and the like.

2009 - this is where my life really started changing - I'd always been friendly with most people in my year at school, but as we were in 6th year, we had the common room and I really made a lot of good, solid friends in my final year, with people that I'd only really known casually before. I went on Roaccutane for my acne, which had really lasting effects on me, I believe. I went to uni later in 2009, moving away from home and living in halls. I was gripped by depression a lot of the time. I'd go to uni at 9am, come back after my class around 10.30am and spend all day in my room, maybe all night too, creep into the kitchen when no one was there, make food and go back to my room again. I blame Roaccutane for the feelings of depression I was experiencing, even though I'd stopped taking it in August, they make you fill out a form about depression before they give it to you and my mum recently told me that some guy killed himself because of it and his parents are now campaigning to get it banned... nasty stuff. It did the job though at least, totally acne free now ~flawless. But yeah, as a result I kind of hated 1st year, I didn't make friends in halls bar 3 of my flatmates (in a flat of 10) but it wasn't really until 2nd year I felt like we'd properly become friends, which is odd.

2010 - Much preferred 2010. Moved out of halls, went home for summer and felt totally fine after being around people I knew and loved for a few months. Moved into a flat with my two best friends from school who also study at my uni. Honestly just the best feeling. Started to properly become friends with my course friends who, although I liked them, we'd never socialised outside of uni and it felt a bit wooden almost, like we would have gone through the motions of asking how they were etc but we weren't proper friends until 2nd year? Anyway, that was great.

2011 - Dad was diagnosed with multiple sclerosis, that was pretty hard. He only told me to begin with because I wasn't at home and he told me not to worry about him but I could tell he was devastated, he hadn't even told my mum at this point... One of my flatmates started to be a bit of a dick as well, he wouldn't chip in for communal shopping yet he would eat loads of the food, he was seeing this girl who had a boyfriend and didn't think there was anything wrong with that, I walked in on him having a wank... you know, all those things. Hahaha. But yeah, was kinda glad to have moved out because it was ruining our friendship which is the danger of living with your best friends. I got into what I thought was going to be a proper relationship but instead turned out to be a heartbreaking waste of time. I was basically used as a rebound but it was drawn out over 6 months... ultimately I paid a lot of money to go out and visit to have a week together and got dumped as soon as I got there and pretty much spent a week crying my eyes out with nowhere to go and then had to come back and act like I'd had a really great holiday to my friends and family, who didn't know the real reason why I went. A month later I moved to Germany as part of my degree. I liked the city I lived in and I enjoyed the job, but I hated being there. I felt like I was missing out on being at home. I had few friends there and the ones I did, I felt like were only my friends because I needed to have some, not because I genuinely liked them... which is a pretty awful thing to think, and they were lovely girls, but as a guy, there's only so much you can take of hanging out with girls before you need some male contact, or at least some reprieve from it all... like, they were all mega organised and would assume I'd be coming to everything they'd organise and I'd just not show up and they'd be calling my phone for ages and I'd just sit and watch it ring out and wonder why I was such an awful person... so I think I pretty much battled through a second bout of depression all by myself in Germany. I was still hurting over the way I'd had my heart broken. Eventually I wrote a letter to my little brother telling him what had happened to me because I couldn't bear to tell him in person when I was last at home... he told me he'd read it and that he would reply soon, and then a few days later my dad called me and said they'd "found" the letter (clearly snooped through his things for no reason) and so they found out all about it. That was a very emotional conversation. I was all alone in a foreign country and my parents, mostly my mum, didn't even want to talk to me.. my dad came around after a couple of days and said he'd been giving it a lot of thought and he said that he supported and loved me still and that he was so sorry that I felt I couldn't talk to him about myself, so he started sending me emails almost daily telling me about his life when he was growing up - about his life before he met my mum, before they had me, that kinda thing.. that was a nice bonding experience. It was around this time I decided to go out and start seizing opportunities rather than moping around, because only victims sit around and feel sorry for themselves, and I am not a victim so I booked flights to go and visit Shaun, because I'd always told myself that I would one day meet an online friend, so I just did it.

2012 - met Shaun in January so much fun! I started to do lots more with my year abroad. I don't know if I enjoyed the experience overall, I think I would approach it differently if I ever moved abroad again, there are so many things I could have done to fill my spare time productively but none of it ever occurred to me while I was there. I think I might move back to Germany when I graduate. I got sexually assaulted in summer. I'm fine with it, I don't really think it's as big a deal as it sounds when you use the words sexual assault, so I can see why so many people who are victims of it don't go to the police about it... still trying to decide what to do about that. It was like 5 months ago now, would be a bit stupid to do anything about it, and I know the guy who did it reasonably well and maybe it was just because there was too much alcohol involved, but I definitely said no, and other people know about it too, so.. I'm back at uni now. I feel so focused this time around, I'm enjoying my courses; I've given two really great presentations and the other day finished an essay that's due on the 3rd, over a week in advance! The old me would have been working to the deadline. I live with two really good friends of mine from uni (but they don't know each other, kinda awkward to begin with but meh) but not with my best friends, which is a blessing. My best friend and I have kind of drifted apart in a lot of ways, I don't think his girlfriend likes any of us so we don't see him as much, and I don't really confide in him anymore, I blame being abroad for that, but when we do see each other it's all good.. he was the first person I called when I found out I had crabs for example he even came over to help me remove all my body hair. Such a bonding experience . I keep seeing my ex around uni too. He keeps trying to make conversation, and I'm not the kind of person who'll be rude to someone if I don't want to talk to them, but I'm a lot more guarded now.. don't really trust people as much as I used to, but I'm almost reckless with how easily I'll believe people, so I think overall that's a good thing.

[Ramsay]

The last 5 years have all been a blur tbh

[Kizzy]

Originally Posted by Sarah.

2007 - I don't really remember much from that year, other than being in Year 10 at school and absolutely hating every minute of it. High School was just horrible and has wrecked my confidence with whatever I do. I'm still 'suffering' nowadays because of being bullied. I remember that 2007 was the year I became obsessed with wrestling and I really wish I hadn't. Met 2 of my best friends online this year also.

2008 - Did my GCSE's, got good grades, left school.. Felt so happy to have left that ****hole. People told me I'd regret not going to prom or saying goodbyes to people but 4 years on and I don't regret a thing. Felt a bit pressured to go to college so I chose English Language, French and IT. Spent 3 months doing it and despising it, didn't hardly turn up.. I dropped out at Christmas. Went to a lot of WWE shows and met a lot of the wrestlers and spent too much of my savings on doing so which I really regret now. Got some online bullies/stalkers who would constantly send me hate messages telling me to die and made me feel ****. They wouldn't leave me alone for months.

2009 - Probably the worst year of my life. I had dropped out of college and basically had nothing to do in my life. I spent 8 months being a lazy bum basically, spent all my time on the internet and working on my website. Went to more WWE shows and I remember spending Ł150 on a front row ticket to see my favourite wrestler and he wasn't there. I was so sad. Haha. So much money down the drain. In August I decided enough was enough and applied to college to do something I had an interest in which was Graphic Design. Best decision ever. 2009 was the year I discovered the genius and perfection of The Beatles after going to Liverpool on a trip

2010 - Things got better, I was studying Graphics and really enjoying doing so. My obsession with wrestling slowly fizzled out and I was kind of glad. It was a really unhealthy obsession and looking back on it now, I can see how pathetic I was. I'm actually embarrassed to look back on what I was like. First time seeing one of my favourite bands, Fozzy. Went to see them 11 times in that year. Didn't really have many friends by this year, my 'best friend' who I could talk to about to about anything started becoming distant and eventually told me I was a bad friend and I haven't spoken to her since.

2011 - My last year of college and I left with good grades, I was happy with them. Went to France this year, drove around the north for 5 days with my dad which was lovely. Had to make a big decision on whether I really wanted to go to uni. I applied late 2010 because everyone else did but I wasn't sure I even wanted to go. Had to get over my fear of interviews - attended 3 uni interviews and got accepted into 2 of them. I had applied to Liverpool uni but got rejected - if I had been given a place I would have gone which would have dramatically changed my life, I often think how different my life would be right now if I moved away to uni instead of staying at home. Started uni doing Graphic Design in September and met some amazing people. Lots of ups and downs with people at uni. Found it incredibly difficult but stuck to it. My great aunt died (she was more like my nan) and it was really heartbreaking. Miss her loads but she gave me determination to do my best at uni - for her in a way.
I saw Paul McCartney live which was the highlight of my entire year omg Also saw Ringo live too.. but Paul

2012 - Been quite a good year. Ups and downs. Had my first boyfriend in March, and I'm still with him atm. Been a bit crazy in relation to that - lots of good times but a few bad times too but I really like him. Went to New York City which was AMAZING, and went to Dublin also which is a lovely place. Passed my driving test and got my own car.. Passed first year of uni which I was very pleased about, now in my second year and really trying to work as much as possible. This year has been a lot of new experiences for me.

Boring tbh.

Not boring one little bit sarah!
What a great example of how we change and grow as individuals...
Loved reading through this thread, at how most have overcome tragedy and doubt to fulfill goals and dreams.
As said ben great thread

[Jords]

Really really interesting reads! Feel so happy reading some of this stuff.. its weird

[Jords]

2007

I was in Year 9 at an all boys Grammar school. I dont remember too much of this year in all fairness, but for sure was at the point where I was at my most hard-working in terms of doing a good job at homework, essays, tests etc. I had made a best mate out of a lad called Peter, who to this day is still 1 of my bests. I didnt have many other friends... despite being quite friendly and warm... a group of 5 of us was forming, though at the time I was sort of embarrassed of the additions because they were branded 'nerds' and I was being brushed with that same stroke and insulted with 'boff' and 'gay' tags. This was quite mindless of me to care but moreso of the dickheads. I also went on holiday to la Pineda (Spain) with my grandparents and brother, who surprised us when my aunty, uncle and 2 cousins joined us after a few days. This was a really good moment for me, love family, and me and my cousin were very close at this point (shes a bit of a mess now) and we had a blast at the water and theme park However my nan kept banging on about how amazing my aunty/uncle/cousins were, and topped off with being ill on the last day I told her she was ruining my time by doing this. This upset her. And I felt guilty so I apologised when we arrived home the next day. But it was true, and I wasnt impressed when my mum found out by a family friend that my aunty had been bitching about my little outburst, in the hairdressers. This caused minor complications, but it soon passed, I had an amazing time overall and was very thankful. We look back on very fond memories. 5 years ago... seems so much longer!

2008

Year 10 had soon crept up and GCSE's had began. I had chosen geography, art and resistant materials/graphics (DT) on top of all the standard subjects. The latter 2 because they were fun, and I knew I wanted to carry on with sciencey subjects so there was no point doing something complicated and boring like history Was quite wierd me choosing art, I vividly remember at the start of year 7 telling people Id never do art further Im crap, but at the end of that year I got an A** for a paper-mache mask. I was never amazing but did a really good job at that and it changed everything. I really enjoyed the subject. I also had a good established friendship group of the 5 guys (well.. I dont really get on with 1, but we sort of have fun with that). I was no longer embarrassed and even stuck-up for them when abuse came their way. We did Bronze D of E! Didnt really go out much at the weekends. So I tried getting in with the popular group. I didnt get far, I did temporarily form a group with a mate and 2 girls when he was dating 1 of them, but when it ended they stopped speaking to me. I got bullied by a guy called Dan and others on the internet (BEBO) a lot too. Didnt affect me at all. Gave it just as good back. Often told him to bring it up at school - never did. He also used other accounts which I later found out, me thinking at the time it was other people. He was quite obsessed... and I suspected he fancied me because he always probed me to "come out please", I have no idea why. It was odd. Went on German exchange! My teacher (often branded a peado, perhaps) really wanted me to take part so offered to pay some for me to go on. My family have financial problems. It was such a fantastic experience. My German partner was a bit boring, but the trips were fun and putting German language to actual practical use finally was great value. I did start to become confused with who I was. Extrovert, introvert? Funny, boring? Amongst other things. This developed in 2009. I became quite a paranoid person. At home times wernt good with family arguments, my nan and granddad lived with us at the time. I often got caught up within it and sided with my grandparnets, which really put a strain on the relationship with my dad...

2009

Final year of GCSE's, year 11. The German girl, named Wiebke by the way, came over to England for 2 weeks. She was a right spoilt little bitch. Moaned about everything, barely ate anything but salad, moaned that I hadnt anything planned (when I was in the middle of organising a trip to London - that was cool) I remember having a full blown argument in the car with her outside Focus as well. I fancied the Thai exchange called Barbara Wouldnt change my partner though, memories, oh so funny and annoying memories. Many pets died this year.. Bonnie, Rocky, Cat R.I.P I questionned many things about myself and became very unhappy with my social status and weight to the point where I seemed to have a 3/4 week period of depression. Went to school like 6 times during that, form tutor didnt follow it up, stayed in bed most of the day... Then joined TiBB towards the end of BB10. Got really addicted. It was such a refreshing change, I spoke to many on here and felt well liked, I think I achieved #3 in Most Loved this year. Since joining I spent a lot of time dedicated on the forum for the rest of 2009.

2010

Year 11 was ending. I did really well with next to 0 revision in my GCSE's. I got 3 A*s, 7 As and 4 Bs. I swear being in a group of really intelligent and hard-working guys kept me on my toes to be the same. I felt really proud, and so was my mum. I was most impressed with my B in Art, since I put a lot of input working on improving my grade - and it paid off! I was a serious TiBB addict for the first part of the year though, was always on this site. Sixth Form began and I started using it slightly less, but not by much. I made 2 new friends who were girls that quickly became bestfriends. I spent breaks with my guys and lunches with them. Times were good. I laughed a lot and I started becoming happy with my social position. I did however start becoming a bit of a rebel... sciving lessons, not doing well on homework etc. Unfortunately at Christmas we had major family problems which caused my nan and granddad who lived with us to leave home. This was a very difficult time for me. Im close to family and moreso with my nan, she was like a bestfriend. I got worked up, and started flunking sixth form further. My dog Saxon got put down too On top of this the 2 girls I had become very close to ditched me just before exams after a cracking Geography trip to Dorset to 'do their own thing. After some meddling about I found out it was for them to attempt to become popular, which really kicked me down and made me feel awful. I didnt get it. We had such a laugh together. This didnt help my paranoia of people's loyalty to me and of my appearance. I think I started using TiBB more again. However looking back its the best thing that could have happened, it made me concentrate on my studies and I revised my butt off after practically doing no work... I got 2 B's in Biology and Geography and 2 C's in Chemistry and Psychology at AS level. I dropped Chemistry when entering Year 13 for A2.

2011

My final academic year after 7 at my secondary school/sixth form. It was really, really good. Despite being caught in the middle of my nan/granddad and mum/dad war, which really got me down, I made another fantastic bunch of mates. We laughed, played cards, were silly and its all the things I shoulda been like back in my younger years. I did become lazy. Work was minimal. But I was enjoying life and going out. I never really knew what uni was like either, but I started visiting places with my parents and bro and had a fun time doing so! It was so exciting getting offers back! I also did more charity work at a local Cancer Research UK shop every Saturday, and I rekindled my joy of swimming and went twice a week. This was to help improve my fitness at the same time.

2012

Worked picked up and I passed A levels with BBC (C in Geog... 1 mark off a B!). I didnt get into UEA but I got into SHU. Initially I was disappointed but I soon got excited. I got 2 cracking bunch of mates, with 3 bestmates - Peter, Will and Lily. And in the summer we got pissed so many times, but it was great. I started to really feel happy about myself. I had been swimming twice a week for over a year now, and the weight was slowly coming off. Uni was also approaching, and I was excited, nervous, disorganised etc. - just like everybody else

Now in 2012?

Im currently at SHU doing Psychology which I love. Want to be a councillor. Uni life is AMAZING. Finally gone clubbing and love it. It was hard leaving family but the distant has brought us closer and any bitterness of things are fading. Its nice to be independent and do what you want with everything close. I do miss my mum a lot though. Both sets of grandparents are doing well too, and I visit when I return. Met some great people here, need to work a bit more but doing relatively alright. Feel Ive changed a lot since Ive been here already, getting more confident, though still a mess at presentations. Weight is falling off as Ive finally got the courage to hit the gym. TiBB? I pop on, its nice to actually have a life but I still enjoy reading posts here. m still a bit paranoid from time-to-time and need to work things out, but all in time. I have a regret of not meeting more people during Freshers, but nothing I cant work on. Oh, and I need to find a house for next year... eek! And a job.


Spent hours writing this, didnt know I had so much to say about myself

[Benjamin]

An interesting five years for you Jords, glad to hear you did well and picked yourself back up. Also glad to hear you are enjoying uni life.

[Jords]

Thanks

Cannot believe its nearly 5am!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Was kinda theurapeutic writing that, really brought the memories back and how things have gotten so much better.

[Shaun]

Glad you're having a great time Jords and I agree LOL, after I wrote mine I felt really happy.

[GypsyGoth]

I've walked more than 2,000 miles over the last 5 years.

[King Gizzard]

you knob

[GypsyGoth]

You are such a double knob!!!

[King Gizzard]

that's just taken it way too far

[GypsyGoth]

Ok I'm sorry, I got carried away.

[King Gizzard]

apology not accepted.

[GypsyGoth]

Check again!! I bet that apology was accepted!

[Jarrod]

2007 - Can't really remember this year so much. I turned 10, and i went on holiday to Disneyland Paris...

2008 -In September i moved to High School and started Year 7. I also advanced in Welsh ect and started new subjects like French. Also went on holiday to Majorca this year. Nothing too major happened this year however, i know this was my last summer on a Caravan Park in Wales with all my friends before i moved to a near-by Village.

2009 - In January i moved House to my first fully Welsh Village. This year was a turning point for me in school really. I was never popular in school and didn't really have any friends. People saw me as a easy target and i was bullied quite a bit in this year. It stopped after it got bad enough to phone the School and get the bullies sorted out. Also this was the year where I applied to appear on BGT. I got an audition date and venue but i never plucked up enough courage to go, due to people finding out and making fun out of it ect. Went on my first over-night school trip to London to see Hairspray in the West End

2010 - I remember being heart-broken and distraught that David Tennant had left Doctor Who on New Years Day. This year was quite a hard year. I felt very drawn away from my friends in school and for no reason felt alone for quite a while. But in September when i moved into Year 9 of school, auditions to appear in the school's performance of 'We Will Rock You' came along. I put my name down to appear and this was where my courage began to build. Made lots of friends and even my first Girlfriend came out of it. I also moved house again to where i currently live. Oh and i went to France with the school for the first time this year.

2011 - Nothing major happened at all. Settled into my House, enjoyed summer you know the usual. This is the year where i lost a load of weight ect and suddenly grew taller. I made my GCSE choices - Catering, French, Information Tech and a BTEC Performing Arts Course.

2012 - This is probably the biggest year of them all. I sat my first GCSE exams in May and escaped with a B in English Lit, and a B in my Catering Practical. Major things happened at home, but i don't really like talking about it. I finally felt like i fitted in, at school and had a stable group of friends. I also appeared in the school's production of 'Hairspray' a few weeks ago which is an experience i'll never forget. Since March, i have grown in confidence, in personality and also in skills. I feel much happier with myself now, i feel like i can do anything without being knocked down by a load of selfish and horrible bullies. I also went to France again with the school because of my GCSE course. This year I also went to my first real concert with two friends. It was Pixie, Olly Murs, Cover Drive Dianna Vickers and AME



Nothing amazing but here you go.

[Jake.]

Good read Jarrod

[Jarrod]

Originally Posted by JH95

Good read Jarrod

Thanks

[Mystic Mock]

5 years ago - I was leaving Primary School and getting prepared for Secondry School, I moved from my first Secondry School after the first day as my parents didn't like the look of the School in the end, I then lost contact with the few friends I actually had at Primary School, but all was good with the next Secondry School.

4 years ago - Moving to Tamworth as it was nearer my School, plus Aston became a dump so I had to make a massive adjustment from the city life.

3 years ago - I got my very first Laptop and I was testing my Documents out first and wrote a few crappy stories lol, and then I finally came on TIBB as Jedward Fever and was hated by nearly everyone at first lol.

2 years ago - Me and my Niece was spending time together properly for the first time as I had to help my Mom with looking after her which has been the same since.

1 year ago - My Sister announced that she was pregnant again so we all predicted what the name would be and I was right in the end.

Present day - Just having troubles asking a girl out.

[Ramsay]

Is it Mollie?

[Mystic Mock]

Originally Posted by Karl

Is it Mollie?

A Mock never reveals the name of the girl.