[Shaun]

So I made a long-winded post about how I'd had no student loans or grants paid to me about a month ago and everything seemed quite dire then... so imagine my surprise when I found out today that it could take up to 30 working days for anything to be paid to me

I uh... let's see.

I've not been able to pay any rent.
I've not been able to buy a bus pass.
I've not been able to buy books.
I've not been able to buy a rail card, or any other travel cards or student cards.

All I'm currently living on is whatever my mum can afford to send me each week - which, as a widowed mother and guardian of 3 (and then me) on low income, isn't exactly a lot [don't get me wrong, I'm not ungrateful, she's literally saving me from starvation right now, and I love her unwaveringly for that]

I don't even know what I'm posting... I've sent off emails to just about everyone at my university because I've been unable to travel into uni and attend lectures and seminars... hence my 24/7 presence on here, really :/ ... and obviously this'll get to the stage soon where I'm failing assessments. Thankfully not yet. And since I'm retaking I'm not miles behind - I have good ideas of what the assessments require, because I passed them this time last year I just went to pot in the spring...

But uh, yeah, I thought I should give you fair warning because I'm about as desperate and angry and frustrated as I've ever been in my life and I'd just like everyone to send me hugs and tell me I'm pretty and pretend that my life's not a total ****ing misery and in need of an abrupt end.