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..I think that's the thing with games, whether you're running them or just taking part...they drive you crazy in a way because you think..ughh, I need to get some sleep, this is taking over my life but as soon as you're out or they're over, you feel really sad and miss them....t'is a screwed up world...I'm being taken out for lunch on Sunday, my eldest son has booked a table somewhere but he won't say where..he did say to his dad though..'I've done my bit now you can pay..'...he was joking I think..I think....you never know with my two guys because they're such wind-up people...(they take after their dad of course.....)...

..you've done a great job with Apprentice and especially as you have had so much to deal with, I've enjoyed watching it all and the guys have all done such great work with the tasks...drinking as much water as you can manage will help with the dry mouth, which seems to be a common thing with some medications and yeah, mints as well....awww Josh.....oooo, I hope he has nice plans for you for Mother's Day on Sunday, a 'treat' day would be perfect for you atm....

..yeah, that's the only thing with that type of medication, it can be quite heavy going..I know with my back/neck problems, I have medication for depression because it relaxes the muscles but it makes me feel very odd and not always 'in control' but it does also help as well so I kind of just dip in and out of it when it's really bad..and that's the good thing, you can stop for a few days or so if you don't feel right but then take it if you feel the need..?..but if it helps you sleep, then it is going to be good to take it because exhaustion always amplifies everything and generally can stop people from functioning etc.....

..hey....how was your night, did you get any sleep/rest..?..

..I only use that fist smiley because I love it so much...

..oh that's terrific..now you make sure you completely tell them everything young missy.....

..I'm off to get ready and tidy up a bit, (I think) you're ok for now and make that phone call as soon as you're able to...I'll catch you a bit later, ok and you have a good morning......

This place is an absolute lifeline to me ATM, between you, Kizzy and Annie. I can't tell you how much just being able to connect with someone and not feel alone means to me. It calms me down to just talk, even if it's just chit chat.