[Princess]

Not everyone on here knows what happened to my last year. My 39 year old uncle died,my mum went into hospital and my grandad died all within 2 weeks,while I was doing a nursing placement on a old persons ward. And all I had was Take That,nice lovely Take That,with a constant stability to cheer me up. And knowing I was going to be going to those concerts in the summer,well it kept me going to say the least. Come September,I found out I failed first year. And I was 'off books' which basically meant I was sitting around on my ass for a year. I was planning to do things,lots of things so I went searching for a job and luck has it that no matter how hard I try I can't get one.

I've decided to change course because I liked nursing in the first place,but one I have no money to change course and two I have no clue what I want to do. So to sum up,my family was in tatters,I've been bored with no clue what to do for the best part of a year and I had Take That.

So when I found that the one thing that I had that hadn't been ruined gets ruined well that kind of sucks. I loved Mark Owen because I thought he was a decent,lovely,genuinely nice guy. Everyone said so and it's what I believed for 3 and a half years,that's a huge reason why I liked him so much and the rest of the boys to. So to find out that's a lie,it ruined the one thing that had kept me going all these years. It changed everything,and it may seem petty to some of you but it me,it wasn't just about Mark,it changed how I thought about everything.

Which is why I was so unbelievably upset and why I overreacted. And to have a lot of you turn on me wasn't the nicest experience. And to have someone say to me that I'm physoctic or that I need professional help so lightly just hurts. Mental health problems have ruined my family and to say something like that to me hurt a lot. Some of you overreacted to me being quite emotional,I did something in the heat of the moment,which I do regret but seriously,cut me a bit of slack please! Don't be so quick to assume you know everything.

Not that anyone will read this because it's an essay but I just thought I'd say.

[Firewire]

I know you've been through a lot Laura.

[MeMyselfAndI]

Princess i dont know anyone who dislikes you you seem really nice
Vote for Leona against Blink! Btw i watched Take That the circus on Tv they were really good

[ILoveTRW]

you have a soul

[Shaun]

[Shasown]

You're still a Princess to me, honey.

[Jords]

Laura I think your lovely, sorry to hear that things havnt been the best for you.

[setanta]

Don't be worrying yourself over that thread Princess. We all understand that you were very upset and I'm very sorry to hear about your family troubles hun.

[Niamh.]

Well, maybe you just needed to believe that to get you through what you've been going through so maybe it wasn't a waste of time, whether it was true about Mark being a nice guy or not, you needed to believe he was at that time in your life and it served it's purpose, eventhough I know you're still upset about it.

[Stacey.]

[WOMBAI]

Originally Posted by Princess

Not everyone on here knows what happened to my last year. My 39 year old uncle died,my mum went into hospital and my grandad died all within 2 weeks,while I was doing a nursing placement on a old person'd ward. And all I had was Take That,nice lovely Take That,with a constant stability to cheer me up. And knowing I was going to be going to those concerts in the summer,well it kept me going to say the least. Come September,I found out I failed first year. And I was 'off books' which basically meant I was sitting around on my ass for a year. I was planning to do things,lots of things so I went searching for a job and luck has it that no matter how hard I try I can't get one.

I've decided to change course because I liked nursing in the first place,but one I have no money to change course and two I have no clue what I want to do. So to sum up,my family was in tatters,I've been bored with no clue what to do for the best part of a year and I had Take That.

So when I found that the one that I had that hadn't been ruined gets ruined well that kind of sucks. I loved Mark Owen because I thought he was a decent,lovely,genuinely nice guy. Everyone said so and it's what I believed for 3 and a half years,that's a huge reason why I liked him so much and the rest of the boys to. So to find out that's a lie,it ruined the one that had kept me going all these years. It changed everything,and it may seem petty to some of you but it me,it wasn't just about Mark,it changed how I thought about everything.

Which is why I was so unbelievably upset and why I overreacted. And to have a lot of you turn on me wasn't the nicest experience. And to have someone say to me that I'm physoctic or that I need professional help so lightly just hurts. Mental health problems have ruined my family and to say something like that to me hurt a lot. Some of you overreacted to me being quite emotional,I did something in the heat of the moment,which I do regret but seriously,cut me a bit of slack please! Don't be so quick to assume you know everything.

Not that anyone will read this because it's an essay but I just thought I'd say.

I don't think anyone was turning on you princess - just thought you were a bit heavy-handed that is all! We all make mistakes - and you don't need to beat yourself up about it! You are a good moderator - don't expect anyone thinks any different!

[Princess]

Thanks guys,I actually just cried cos you were so nice which is sad,lmao!

[Beastie]

I hope you are okay now Princess x

[Princess]

Originally Posted by thebeast

I hope you are okay now Princess x

Not right now no,but I will hopefully be alright soon x

[Jessica.]

It's grand, everyone deals with stuff in different ways tbh. I don't think you overreacted at all.

[GypsyGoth]

[Captain.Remy]

Whoever insulted you is an asshole. You're a hell of a nice decent fun loving girl Princess, don't you ever forget it.

[Patrick]

Was Mark the one that won Celebrity Big Brother?

[Shaun]

Originally Posted by Patrick

Was Mark the one that won Celebrity Big Brother?

yeah, the second series

[Princess]

Thanks guys Means a lot.

And just to say about Mark. I havn't 'forgiven' him,I no way condone what he did,I'm annoyed that some people think if you're a 'true fan' you have to 'support' him but I have some morals.... I do hope he sorts out his issues though and does whatever is best for Emma,Elwood and Willow. I'm supporting them in all this,not Mark,

[InOne]

Hope you're ok Laura, I did understand you side of things You should be on msn more!!!

[Raph]

aww babe