[Beso]

When you think of this a bit more. I've had years if major depression that I've fought against since my son died.

I've managed, but there have been months and months of deep dark days over the past 11 years. Months I could easily have decided to end it. I even half heartedly did once. The only thing stopping me was the tackiness of it all and what I would have left behind.

But as a believer if God, and the afterlife. I reckon during the first 2 years I would have taken the legal way out, and been the happiest I have been for the past 11 years when I did it.

You can plan your last few months, and make them the most fulfilling you could with your means.

I reckon it's the way to go to be honest.