[Appearance_Of_A_Junky]

Originally Posted by GypsyGoth

I'm not too fond of people either.

And yep, I think that a forum is a great way to connect. And for me it takes away the anxiety and self doubt I have when chatting people in real lfe, except for family and a couple of other people, I tend not to speak many words, sometimes I could count the amount on my fingers and toes.

So yea it's also on our terms, and plus I feel like I have way more power than like in real life.

I know what you mean, I used to be the one that would sit in a group of friends and say very little, and next to nothing if there was someone new with us. The only thing I had going for me was my sense of humour, but I wasn't really the funny one. I ended up telling myself that I wanted to make the effort and not be like it, but never could. I used to drink in a crappy pub with a few friends and ended up one day getting a bar job, after a year I moved to another pub, and started gaining confidence in dealing with people, as hell I was having to do it all the time. I started training to do more than just bar work, then I was on the relief circuit and running other peoples pubs when they went on holiday (like a trial sort of thing). But the managers would then often blame you for their mistakes and try to clean their image when they returned. One accused me of stealing several barrels worth of beer, they said customers had been getting free drinks and putting me in a bad light. Little did they know that they had been poured down the drain by a company auditor. I had enough quit, but felt better within myself, one night whilst off my face I booked some airflights and ended up travelling on my own around europe for a while, doing some things which could have ended badly (I took some things with me on my trip, which I took when on my trip). I came back with a newer look on things and made an effort. Ended up running the pub near my home where I had worked for four years. Had a bizarre but fun year, but then it all broke apart, things went bad.

Now, I just realise that I prefer my own company, I still go out occasionally, to see friends. But in truth, I prefer being anti-social. I get nothing out of the need to be social, I don't feel the need to be around people, or to have people around me.

It just took me 28 years to work that out.