[Benjamin]

I really hate feeling like this. It feels like I've spent my whole life fighting so many battles like like losing my father, brothers, having to deal with being fat, anorexia, coming out, my step dad, my family, my abusive ex, trying to make a name for myself etc.

I feel like I have lost the will to fight anymore. I just want to be happy and I don't know how to be without putting up a fight.

Sorry to sound like a lost cause, I just need to some advice and didn't really know where else to turn.