[Ammi]

Originally Posted by Stu

Up until about August I drank 5 nights a week and smoked dope more or less all day. I was able to con quite an amount of Xanax out of my GP as well by playing up anxiety issues that were fostered by my poor lifestyle in the first place.

I completely credit meditation and mindfulness in helping me to come down to a nice, social nights drinking once a week. I cultivated the capacity to tap into some sort of groovy cosmic inner ecstasy which I enjoy now far more than the hazy bubble I spent the vast majority of my adolesence in. Not that I regret the myriad of experiences both good and bad I experienced through the whole rite of passage. I could have just shaven off the last pathetic disaster of a year of it, that is all. Breaking my arm forced me to slow down and reasses my life and it has been a blessing.

You need something ready to replace your addiction with, don't you. Think of the health and CA$H DOLLAR you are practically rolling in for free as your reward for like ... not killing yourself ... and reaffirm it constantly to yourself. Love yourself unconditionally. The entire universe is inside you. Bring stuff out instead of taking it in!

I'm fully aware that I have traded one cliche for another. But thats a problem for the ego and I am so much more than that.

..wow, you really are...that post has left me a bit speechless...regrets would be pointless anyway, but you should never regret anything, just take something from it...you've done that..you seem happy ...and I think the most important thing is that you love being you...I'm not really sure what else to say...just always be you, I guess....


..a really lovely post Stu...