[Stu]

Originally Posted by Ammi

..wow, you really are...that post has left me a bit speechless...regrets would be pointless anyway, but you should never regret anything, just take something from it...you've done that..you seem happy ...and I think the most important thing is that you love being you...I'm not really sure what else to say...just always be you, I guess....


..a really lovely post Stu...

Wow thanks!

Kizzy I had really bad anxiety and panic attacks as a teenager. The whole chemical intake thing then served to exasperate it whilst providing the temporary illusion of being of being an uninhibited extrovert. I am fine these days though - another thing meditation is excellent for - but I definately took advantage of it towards the end to get prescriptions.

Strips of Valium can also be bought real cheap around where I live. Tablets are the absoloute worst.

Yes you can definately tap in to something through practice, open mind and surrendering your ego. Or maybe it's the something that taps in to you. I am a total believer. A lot of this stuff struck me as intrinsic and obvious when I first encountered it.

Those break through points when you completely stop your flow of thought - even the thought that lets you know it is happening - are unreal. Coming back from that void gives me a real, marked sense of euphoria.

I could rabbit on about this stuff all night but typing on an Xbox sucks. Stu needs a new laptop.