[Ammi]

Originally Posted by Ashley.

I'd like to say I have a pretty good group of friends that I met at Uni, however there are a lot of things they don't know about me. I didn't tell them these things when I first met them because it's a bit full on shoving personal **** down the throats of people you've just met, but after a while I suppose I just "blocked" the bad side of me out - I feel like a completely different person around my friends, and it's not until I'm alone when it dawns on me that my life isn't really that perfect... I suppose deep down I want to forget about the things that I've done and I don't want to be defined by it, if you know what I mean, but I feel like the longer I'm keeping these things tucked in, the bigger the hole I'm digging and I feel like when I do finally tell them, it would be a shock to them that I kept it from them for so long. They might think I don't trust them?

What are your feelings about keeping things secret? Are you the type to open up to close friends or keep everything locked inside?

..maybe it's something that you find painful to consciously think about Ashley but that doesn't mean it's 'bad' and no one's life is perfect, there is no perfect...and I'm sure that some of your friends at Uni even, have their own 'bad'...and these things aren't defining at all, it's who you are now...your friends don't need to know something that isn't you now, so don't feel guilt or anything about not telling them...if they ever did somehow know and judged you in any way for it..?...then that's not a bad thing either Ashley...it may be upsetting to you but it will help you see more clearly, those people in your life that you want to carry with you and those that are better left in the past......