[sungrass]

Oh its not on you tube - I suppose you would have to watch TOWIE. Basically she was in love and had a crush on this man - she tried so hard to get him - she thought he liked her back (production were lying to her for the story) at the pool party someone with champagne walks towards her and she starts smiling and is so happy thinking its to her from the man she loves - but the waiter walks right past her, to a her skinny friend. Then she starts crying but shes trying to hard to hide it she says "this is so embarrassing I mustnt cry I mustnt cry get me out of here" You could literally see her heart breaking. They did that to her over and over again because she was Naive and thats why she is a cow now.