[Jamie89]

So sorry you're feeling like this Riley, I don't know what to say that hasn't already been said, I'd definitely recommend speaking to someone like a doctor or calling a group like the Samaritans if you want to be anonymous and not speak to someone in person about your feelings, but definitely speak to someone. You're not alone in feeling like this, I reckon there'd have to be something wrong with someone if they didn't feel like this at some point in their lives, it's totally normal.
It might seem like a little thing but there's people on this site who really love you, I know personally you make me laugh so much and you've bonded with others too, so yeah it's "just a BB forum" but you brighten up peoples experience of being here so you're obviously a very special person, situations change so don't let a bad situation affect your view of yourself, and if there's certain things you know you want to change like having more friends for example there's things you can do to work on that. When I moved to London I joined https://www.meetup.com/ which I'd recommend, they hold all sorts of different types of social events and things (and you can create your own events too) and it might take a bit of time but it could be a step towards growing your social life.