[Maru]

Originally Posted by Zizu

So sad

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Thank you Zizu Our animals are our family. Treasure every moment is all I can say.

[Ammi]

Originally Posted by Maru

Not much. We had to put my oldest pup down several days ago. It was not a shock she was sick as she is within that age range and some signs I was noticing, but shocking considering how quick it all happened. She had laid down after coming home with us and didn't want to move. Breathing was elevated and when I checked gums, they were white, so dangerously anemic and blood loss somewhere. They did ultrasound and found apparent hermangiosarcoma (a very aggressive blood vessel cancer) which had done massive damage already to her spleen, possibly liver, the sac around her heart had fluid likely from the spread and between that and fluid in lungs (+blood loss) making it very difficult to get oxygen. The spleen tumor ruptured into her adomen which caused anemia and it's almost impossible to catch on screens with the quickness of it. She was so critical that hospice/EU at home wasn't an option.

The blessing is she lived her last days perfectly fine with her happy family, playing normally, rushing after squirrels, eating well. Most of her signs could have been just as easily age, but some I knew well enough were signaling the end was nearer than not. In fact this week I meant to take her in early for her annual to do major bloodwork. I am having a harder time than I thought I would ever have being with illness I am typically very logical, but I guess seeing as she was a special needs baby in her own way.. highly neurotic and major separation anxiety.. and was such a huge part of our happy lives, I am having a hard time. Even the home we chose to live in was partially to cater to her unique needs. A big yard to play in which feels so empty without her. Her end was so very peaceful and it is everything we wished for her, that she did not have to endure stressful medical hospice or extensive separation/vet anxiety, but it just feels like so much is missing from our lives... even if I was mentally prepared, I certainly wasn't ready.

…I’m so very, very sorry, Maru……no matter how logical we are and I know that you are, we all see that…our hearts also logically attach to those animal pets who have also formed such a big part of our family….as much as we’ve cared for them, they’ve also been there through many of our difficult times also and have been a huge comfort in our lives…they are just so much cherished …I’m glad that her end was peaceful but we can never prepare for losing a much loved part of our family…we grieve because we love…I’m really so sorry……

[OnTheRight]

Originally Posted by Maru

Not much. We had to put my oldest pup down several days ago. It was not a shock she was sick as she is within that age range and some signs I was noticing, but shocking considering how quick it all happened. She had laid down after coming home with us and didn't want to move. Breathing was elevated and when I checked gums, they were white, so dangerously anemic and blood loss somewhere. They did ultrasound and found apparent hermangiosarcoma (a very aggressive blood vessel cancer) which had done massive damage already to her spleen, possibly liver, the sac around her heart had fluid likely from the spread and between that and fluid in lungs (+blood loss) making it very difficult to get oxygen. The spleen tumor ruptured into her adomen which caused anemia and it's almost impossible to catch on screens with the quickness of it. She was so critical that hospice/EU at home wasn't an option.

The blessing is she lived her last days perfectly fine with her happy family, playing normally, rushing after squirrels, eating well. Most of her signs could have been just as easily age, but some I knew well enough were signaling the end was nearer than not. In fact this week I meant to take her in early for her annual to do major bloodwork. I am having a harder time than I thought I would ever have being with illness I am typically very logical, but I guess seeing as she was a special needs baby in her own way.. highly neurotic and major separation anxiety.. and was such a huge part of our happy lives, I am having a hard time. Even the home we chose to live in was partially to cater to her unique needs. A big yard to play in which feels so empty without her. Her end was so very peaceful and it is everything we wished for her, that she did not have to endure stressful medical hospice or extensive separation/vet anxiety, but it just feels like so much is missing from our lives... even if I was mentally prepared, I certainly wasn't ready.

So sorry for your loss.

[Niamh.]

Originally Posted by Maru

Not much. We had to put my oldest pup down several days ago. It was not a shock she was sick as she is within that age range and some signs I was noticing, but shocking considering how quick it all happened. She had laid down after coming home with us and didn't want to move. Breathing was elevated and when I checked gums, they were white, so dangerously anemic and blood loss somewhere. They did ultrasound and found apparent hermangiosarcoma (a very aggressive blood vessel cancer) which had done massive damage already to her spleen, possibly liver, the sac around her heart had fluid likely from the spread and between that and fluid in lungs (+blood loss) making it very difficult to get oxygen. The spleen tumor ruptured into her adomen which caused anemia and it's almost impossible to catch on screens with the quickness of it. She was so critical that hospice/EU at home wasn't an option.

The blessing is she lived her last days perfectly fine with her happy family, playing normally, rushing after squirrels, eating well. Most of her signs could have been just as easily age, but some I knew well enough were signaling the end was nearer than not. In fact this week I meant to take her in early for her annual to do major bloodwork. I am having a harder time than I thought I would ever have being with illness I am typically very logical, but I guess seeing as she was a special needs baby in her own way.. highly neurotic and major separation anxiety.. and was such a huge part of our happy lives, I am having a hard time. Even the home we chose to live in was partially to cater to her unique needs. A big yard to play in which feels so empty without her. Her end was so very peaceful and it is everything we wished for her, that she did not have to endure stressful medical hospice or extensive separation/vet anxiety, but it just feels like so much is missing from our lives... even if I was mentally prepared, I certainly wasn't ready.

Sorry Maru

[Maru]

Originally Posted by Ammi

…I’m so very, very sorry, Maru……no matter how logical we are and I know that you are, we all see that…our hearts also logically attach to those animal pets who have also formed such a big part of our family….as much as we’ve cared for them, they’ve also been there through many of our difficult times also and have been a huge comfort in our lives…they are just so much cherished …I’m glad that her end was peaceful but we can never prepare for losing a much loved part of our family…we grieve because we love…I’m really so sorry……

Originally Posted by OnTheRight

So sorry for your loss.

Originally Posted by Kate!

Sorry Maru.

Sleep tight with the angels little doggie.

Originally Posted by Niamh.

Sorry Maru

Thanks everyone. I just needed to "get it out". I went out this morning with little one and my pup's little brother for a family walk and then to shops. It helped. Our weather is 100% clear and it hasn't been in while. The passing/developing hurricane took all our clouds away...

Hope everyone else has had a good day It's still midday here.

[Kate!]

Sorry Maru.

Sleep tight with the angels little doggie.

[Jessica.]

Up at 9, did some housework, had breakfast, got ready for the day, went out to buy kitty litter and picked up a new buggy too, saw my MIL, had a croissant in the shopping centre, transferred some pictures to my PC from my camera, chatted with my family in Ireland, cooked a meal.

[Cherie]

aw Maru, so sorry, your pup was blessed to have you

[Ray.]

Broke up with someone because I didn't love them as much as they love me and I wasn't 100% I even loved them romantically at all. This was after rushing into a very short lived relationship because I was scared of them walking out of my life completely. Rightly felt like the worst and most selfish person on the face of the planet and confirmed to myself that I am in fact awful. The only thing I have to cling onto now is the hope that I'm not completely irredeemable. And all that before 7.30 in the morning.

[Ammi]

Originally Posted by Ray.

Broke up with someone because I didn't love them as much as they love me and I wasn't 100% I even loved them romantically at all. This was after rushing into a very short lived relationship because I was scared of them walking out of my life completely. Rightly felt like the worst and most selfish person on the face of the planet and confirmed to myself that I am in fact awful. The only thing I have to cling onto now is the hope that I'm not completely irredeemable. And all that before 7.30 in the morning.

……that’s tough, it’s not an easy thing to do but continuing the relationship would have deepened those feelings that they have but it could never have any feel good to know someone that you care about is emotionally bruised and you feel responsibility for that…?…but you’re not responsible for someone else’s feeling being more or stronger than yours….you can only act on what you yourself feels right and to continue something that didn’t feel right, somehow…?…would have left you not feeling great with yourself, wouldn’t it…I think that it’s just sadly one of those situations that just isn’t great in that there will be hurt involved but it’s unavoidable and sometimes it just is…?…we try, it doesn’t work and we have to say goodbye because that’s also the only thing that will enable that other person to heal and move forward…?…

…you are not in fact awful, not even slightly so…you’ve done something that you felt was essential to do…(…for both of you…)…and you feel bad and low about it because you’re the furthest thing from awful……

[Benjamin]

Originally Posted by Ray.

Broke up with someone because I didn't love them as much as they love me and I wasn't 100% I even loved them romantically at all. This was after rushing into a very short lived relationship because I was scared of them walking out of my life completely. Rightly felt like the worst and most selfish person on the face of the planet and confirmed to myself that I am in fact awful. The only thing I have to cling onto now is the hope that I'm not completely irredeemable. And all that before 7.30 in the morning.

You’re not awful, you’re human. And it will feel like you’re the worst person in the world ending it, but if you know it’s not right, ending it sooner rather than later is better for both you. Hope you’re ok.

[ThomasC]

Originally Posted by Benjamin

I lost my grandfather the other day, so my OH has taken me down to Tenby to hike around the Pembrokeshire coast for the weekend so I can recompose myself.

He prepared a charcuterie board and port for tonight too as he knows it’s one of my fave meals. He’s honestly such a gem for that.

What a lovely partner.

Originally Posted by Ray.

Broke up with someone because I didn't love them as much as they love me and I wasn't 100% I even loved them romantically at all. This was after rushing into a very short lived relationship because I was scared of them walking out of my life completely. Rightly felt like the worst and most selfish person on the face of the planet and confirmed to myself that I am in fact awful. The only thing I have to cling onto now is the hope that I'm not completely irredeemable. And all that before 7.30 in the morning.

Not a nice situation all around, but will be best for all involved

[Cherie]

Originally Posted by Ray.

Broke up with someone because I didn't love them as much as they love me and I wasn't 100% I even loved them romantically at all. This was after rushing into a very short lived relationship because I was scared of them walking out of my life completely. Rightly felt like the worst and most selfish person on the face of the planet and confirmed to myself that I am in fact awful. The only thing I have to cling onto now is the hope that I'm not completely irredeemable. And all that before 7.30 in the morning.

crikey, did you kick her out of bed ....or tell her on her way to work...why so early.... anyhow I hope you are both okay, if you were unsure it was for the best.

[Benjamin]

I lost my grandfather the other day, so my OH has taken me down to Tenby to hike around the Pembrokeshire coast for the weekend so I can recompose myself.

He prepared a charcuterie board and port for tonight too as he knows it’s one of my fave meals. He’s honestly such a gem for that.

[Kate!]

Originally Posted by Benjamin

I lost my grandfather the other day, so my OH has taken me down to Tenby to hike around the Pembrokeshire coast for the weekend so I can recompose myself.

He prepared a charcuterie board and port for tonight too as he knows it’s one of my fave meals. He’s honestly such a gem for that.

Bless you.

[Ammi]

Originally Posted by Benjamin

I lost my grandfather the other day, so my OH has taken me down to Tenby to hike around the Pembrokeshire coast for the weekend so I can recompose myself.

He prepared a charcuterie board and port for tonight too as he knows it’s one of my fave meals. He’s honestly such a gem for that.

…yeah he’s a gem……and so are you and your grandfather would have felt so much that gem he had for a grandson…..

[Niamh.]

Originally Posted by Benjamin

I lost my grandfather the other day, so my OH has taken me down to Tenby to hike around the Pembrokeshire coast for the weekend so I can recompose myself.



He prepared a charcuterie board and port for tonight too as he knows it’s one of my fave meals. He’s honestly such a gem for that.

I'm so sorry Ben your partner sounds like a real keeper

[Benjamin]

Originally Posted by Niamh.

I'm so sorry Ben your partner sounds like a real keeper

[AnnieK]

Originally Posted by Benjamin

I lost my grandfather the other day, so my OH has taken me down to Tenby to hike around the Pembrokeshire coast for the weekend so I can recompose myself.

He prepared a charcuterie board and port for tonight too as he knows it’s one of my fave meals. He’s honestly such a gem for that.

Sorry to hear that Ben

[Benjamin]

Originally Posted by AnnieK

Sorry to hear that Ben

[Cherie]

Originally Posted by Benjamin

I lost my grandfather the other day, so my OH has taken me down to Tenby to hike around the Pembrokeshire coast for the weekend so I can recompose myself.

He prepared a charcuterie board and port for tonight too as he knows it’s one of my fave meals. He’s honestly such a gem for that.

Sorry for you loss Ben x

[Cherie]

Lovely day here today and yesterday it poured down so the earth was just perfect for bulb planting

hopefully in the Spring we will have an array of snowdrops, crocus, daffs, tulips and bluebells if the pesky squirrels leave them in the ground

[Benjamin]

Originally Posted by Cherie

Lovely day here today and yesterday it poured down so the earth was just perfect for bulb planting

hopefully in the Spring we will have an array of snowdrops, crocus, daffs, tulips and bluebells if the pesky squirrels leave them in the ground

I need to do that next weekend!

[Benjamin]

Originally Posted by Cherie

Sorry for you loss Ben x

[Barry.]

Went to a coffee morning and had tea. Bought a few books and cakes to boot