[Princess]

Not everyone on here knows what happened to my last year. My 39 year old uncle died,my mum went into hospital and my grandad died all within 2 weeks,while I was doing a nursing placement on a old persons ward. And all I had was Take That,nice lovely Take That,with a constant stability to cheer me up. And knowing I was going to be going to those concerts in the summer,well it kept me going to say the least. Come September,I found out I failed first year. And I was 'off books' which basically meant I was sitting around on my ass for a year. I was planning to do things,lots of things so I went searching for a job and luck has it that no matter how hard I try I can't get one.

I've decided to change course because I liked nursing in the first place,but one I have no money to change course and two I have no clue what I want to do. So to sum up,my family was in tatters,I've been bored with no clue what to do for the best part of a year and I had Take That.

So when I found that the one thing that I had that hadn't been ruined gets ruined well that kind of sucks. I loved Mark Owen because I thought he was a decent,lovely,genuinely nice guy. Everyone said so and it's what I believed for 3 and a half years,that's a huge reason why I liked him so much and the rest of the boys to. So to find out that's a lie,it ruined the one thing that had kept me going all these years. It changed everything,and it may seem petty to some of you but it me,it wasn't just about Mark,it changed how I thought about everything.

Which is why I was so unbelievably upset and why I overreacted. And to have a lot of you turn on me wasn't the nicest experience. And to have someone say to me that I'm physoctic or that I need professional help so lightly just hurts. Mental health problems have ruined my family and to say something like that to me hurt a lot. Some of you overreacted to me being quite emotional,I did something in the heat of the moment,which I do regret but seriously,cut me a bit of slack please! Don't be so quick to assume you know everything.

Not that anyone will read this because it's an essay but I just thought I'd say.