[Kate!]

Originally Posted by Cherie

Such a sad story, as parents we all make mistakes and have missteps, have you ever written to him Kate?

Originally Posted by Ammi

…it was all so much for him to process as well, as you say..he was with you and that’s a traumatic time that he still might not have processed or processed his grief over losing his grandmother…he may have blocked so much emotionally and that might have manifested in not being able to see you …I would say that he may have his own ‘battles’ and things to face as a first step …but that’s something/a place that he’ll have to get to himself…

Cherie ... I don't have any contact details to be able to write to him. The only tiny bit of access I have is that he now no longer blocks me on Facebook which is a recent thing so I was able to congratulate him not long ago on the wedding and give him my phone number. I didn't get a reply but I'm feeling a lot more positive again today. One day we may be reunited. X

Ammi .. yes you are correct and also on top of all that I was often very depressed whilst bringing him up despite medication. I can trace it all back to the abusive relationship with his dad and then the pressures of being a single parent, and having to do things such as breaking the news to Josh that his dad was in prison for life. So when you factor all that into the equation, when he lost me, he'd lost everyone! I was on the mental health ward for 6 months. All this probably is why he ghosted me. And when I moved in with Karl, I think that was a big deal for him as well, I moved to a different town. I think he felt second best and I didn't get a chance to reassure him.