[Twosugars]

Originally Posted by parmnion

Ok seeing as I have already stayed my experiences earlier in the thread goldheart, and you just ignored me..

The MJ case is so much like my experience.


1..young, impressionable moving to a new house with my family next door to our cousins..instantly looking up to my stronger older by 2 and a half years cousin...

2..he pitches a tent in his back garden in the summer and obvioysly I'm up for camping..

3..normal jokey nights to begin with, then a little experimenting..


4..the doing it because you looked up to him..it felt ok, didn't it...at the time.


5..just guilt for years really, guilt for it feeling ok.

6..ah **** this, am no having this **** anymorem

No, Parm, your experience is nothing like the MJ case.
There was 2,5 years difference between you and your cousin. So you were almost peers. Not a kid and an adult more than twice his age.
What you describing is two kids/adolescents (?, don't know how old you both were) fooling around which some kids do. I'm sorry you feel he coerced you into it. But you didn't mind it at the time?
It seems to me you feel guilty you enjoyed gay sex in some form, but that's a different matter. Not your cousin's fault you can't come to terms you may be a little gay.
And before you shout at me, I had the same thing done to me by an older cousin.