[Swan]

Originally Posted by Vicky.

May be massive lust for her then. From you describing them. That and relishing the attention of a guy she sees as..well I dont want to say perfect but..kinda there?! Would reinforce the 'it will never happen' aspect from her side too, if thats how it is. Again, if that makes sense?

That said, and I know this is overshare but meh. I had a kind of similar situation recently. Had met this guy in real life though so it was a bit different but I did get a kinda infatuation with him. He is ****ing stunning. Seriously. And seems so nice and funny and all that ****. Anyway, it was harmless flirting (for months and months on facebook after meeting him just once) to me as in my mind like **** would he ever have any interest. Well. Hes now not just a fantasy to me.

So again, the problem here is if the guy ever showed her genuine interest? Like, I imagine she would jump at the chance. To her, its not real or possible, but if he decided it should be real she would be happy.

Thinking this through properly, I say lose her before you get in deeper as this doesnt sound healthy for someone in a relationship..and I think you will end up hurt. Regardless.

I think that's the nail on head, deep down i know it is. Im just afraid to admit it to myself because when we feel this gut wrenching pain, we are looking for that slither of hope. She doesn't think he'd go for her, and in all honesty im not sure he would either (maybe he would, who knows). But yes she is there all the time with him trying to get him to show interest in her, and if he did/does i know she'd be gone for good, no matter what she says. She always says about he has so many people after him and he's never gonna go for her anyway. Im not willing to be 2nd best if this does go tits up for either.

I just dunno how she could do this to me, but what the heart wants and all that...And yes Vicky, the sun shines out his arse to her, everything he does is amazing.

It's really time for me to face reality, i know it is!