[CharlieO]

I generally try to set myself up for rejection/disappointment because it just tends to be easier that way.

I used to feel like I needed to be part of the 'in crowd' but definitely no anymore. I'd prefer to be anonymous/invisible than the coolest, most talked about person.

I do fear it thats why I try get myself into as little possible rejection situations ever.

And I do not handle it well, I do let it eat away at me when it does happen but thank god its not often.

I also find it hard to trust people and I'm always negative because if you don't establish deep connections with people you can never really felt like you have lost anything when they inevitably disappoint you.