[AnnieK]

Its a really tough question to be honest Ben and I don't think anyone can truly answer until they are in that position. I used to go clubbing every weekend to a particular club, this was a 90s rave club so the chemicals were not in short supply, I got into the vicious cycle of going out every weekend, taking the full week to recover and then going back and the whole thing repeated every week for 2 years...I was having such a ball, I didn't notice that a lot of my friends including my best friend had taken a serious back step from me...I was either off my head or ratty because of the weekend and had turned into someone they didn't recognise. I thought they were boring and anyway I had all new friends so it didn't matter.

Until one night and I was in the club and at the end there was a bit of commotion leaving and there was a guy on the floor having a seizure....and everyone in the club, me included, stepped over him (he actually died that night). I got to the door, looked back and thought even though I know virtually everyone in this club, if that had been me on the floor everyone would have stepped over me too to get to the next place / fix.

I never went back after that, it was tough though....and made up with my friends who told me they had been worried about the slippery slide i was on but had hoped I would come back myself and I did....I guess that's the closest i've got to the problems you are talking about.