[Ammi]

..I think as well, Tom...that if you have associations with boarding school and feeling home-sickness there and maybe some very unhappy times, etc...?..that without realising it, your emotions could have 'braced themselves' for similar here/at uni...that sub-conscious worrying of really not wanting to feel those things again etc but thinking that you might do....it's like our biggest fears, isn't it...so that in itself would create an uneasy feeling ..but what you're finding out though is that there isn't anything much to be feeling uneasy about and that those negative associations are now being replaced with positives..(hopefully..)...you're not bursting into tears, you are enjoying a decent amount of it etc and that will grow and grow and grow more and more and replace those negative associations that you've probably felt tense about, you know..?......