[Niall]

Originally Posted by Stacey.

*adds death to niall's phobia list*

Originally Posted by GypsyGoth

I've come to terms with the notion that there will just be nothingness.

You see that scares me to the core. I can't accept something as bleak as that.

[_Seth]

Originally Posted by ukturtle

I dunno, I just feel a little directionless at the moment and I have never felt like this before. It's weird and very frustrating.

Kinda makes sense since you've just moved to a new place. (I think.)

[Benjamin]

I really hate feeling like this. It feels like I've spent my whole life fighting so many battles like like losing my father, brothers, having to deal with being fat, anorexia, coming out, my step dad, my family, my abusive ex, trying to make a name for myself etc.

I feel like I have lost the will to fight anymore. I just want to be happy and I don't know how to be without putting up a fight.

Sorry to sound like a lost cause, I just need to some advice and didn't really know where else to turn.

[GypsyGoth]

Originally Posted by Niall

You see that scares me to the core. I can't accept something as bleak as that.

I used to believe in reincarnation, I loved the idea that we're here and we learn a new lesson each lifetime, but I think it seemed appealing because of the cheerless nothingness that seems more likely.

Also it's worrying about something that worrying won't change.

[Kerry]

Originally Posted by ukturtle

I really hate feeling like this. It feels like I've spent my whole life fighting so many battles like like losing my father, brothers, having to deal with being fat, anorexia, coming out, my step dad, my family, my abusive ex, trying to make a name for myself etc.

I feel like I have lost the will to fight anymore. I just want to be happy and I don't know how to be without putting up a fight.

Sorry to sound like a lost cause, I just need to some advice and didn't really know where else to turn.

I've got a similar list. Trust me when I say you won't always feel the same. Ups and downs yes. Many. But focus on the ups. I know it's not easy and is hard to see when you're on the 'down' bit. There myself for the past week and still am. But keep talking. Distracting. Focus on the good cos it ALWAYS gets better

[_Seth]

Originally Posted by ukturtle

I really hate feeling like this. It feels like I've spent my whole life fighting so many battles like like losing my father, brothers, having to deal with being fat, anorexia, coming out, my step dad, my family, my abusive ex, trying to make a name for myself etc.

I feel like I have lost the will to fight anymore. I just want to be happy and I don't know how to be without putting up a fight.

Sorry to sound like a lost cause, I just need to some advice and didn't really know where else to turn.

Loads of people go through what you have, though not all of it at a time, which is, as you put it, frustrating. Kinda a frustrating coincidence. (Though trying to make a name for yourself, I don't understand what you mean. That doesn't come across as a problem you NEED to overcome. idk...)

From what little I know of you, you've turned out to be a nice, fair and cool person. I know it's a cliché, but if any one of those problems hadn't have happened, you could have been moulded differently. XD

I hope I'm making sense.

[GypsyGoth]

Originally Posted by ukturtle

I really hate feeling like this. It feels like I've spent my whole life fighting so many battles like like losing my father, brothers, having to deal with being fat, anorexia, coming out, my step dad, my family, my abusive ex, trying to make a name for myself etc.

I feel like I have lost the will to fight anymore. I just want to be happy and I don't know how to be without putting up a fight.

Sorry to sound like a lost cause, I just need to some advice and didn't really know where else to turn.

You could start with maybe making a list of something like where you'd like to be in a year or five years time. Then maybe break it down into goals to achieve that destination, and you could fight towards those goals.

[Niall]

Originally Posted by GypsyGoth

I used to believe in reincarnation, I loved the idea that we're here and we learn a new lesson each lifetime, but I think it seemed appealing because of the cheerless nothingness that seems more likely.

Also it's worrying about something that worrying won't change.

Yeah thats true, I still believe in the whole Heaven thing at heart but I don't think I accept the idea of Hell, I think I believe in a form of purgatory that takes the place of hell? Idk.

I just could not believe there is nothing. It would depress me. I know I'd never be able to accept that. :/

[Niall]

Originally Posted by ukturtle

I really hate feeling like this. It feels like I've spent my whole life fighting so many battles like like losing my father, brothers, having to deal with being fat, anorexia, coming out, my step dad, my family, my abusive ex, trying to make a name for myself etc.

I feel like I have lost the will to fight anymore. I just want to be happy and I don't know how to be without putting up a fight.

Sorry to sound like a lost cause, I just need to some advice and didn't really know where else to turn.

I know this is like the biggest cliché of a thing to say ever but, you should just do something that you enjoy doing in life. Like painting or something like that. Something fulfilling? I always have a hard time with this sort of stuff as well.

[_Seth]

Originally Posted by Niall

Yeah thats true, I still believe in the whole Heaven thing at heart but I don't think I accept the idea of Hell, I think I believe in a form of purgatory that takes the place of hell? Idk.

I just could not believe there is nothing. It would depress me. I know I'd never be able to accept that. :/

I don't think there's anything after life, anymore. I like to think of death as permanent sleep. XD (So I'm almost looking forward to it, since I LOVE sleep. <3)

It hurts my brain when I try and think of where I was before my mom was pregnant with me... it's like, what was I doing?

[Kerry]

I felt like sh!t earlier so forced myself to go for a walk with my camera and then came for a chat with you lot. Always perks (or pisses) me off but always distracts me

[GypsyGoth]

Originally Posted by Phlip

It hurts my brain when I try and think of where I was before my mom was pregnant with me... it's like, what was I doing?

I think about this too. Like if we came from nothing or nowhere we're most likely going back there.

[Niall]

Originally Posted by Phlip

I don't think there's anything after life, anymore. I like to think of death as permanent sleep. XD (So I'm almost looking forward to it, since I LOVE sleep. <3)

It hurts my brain when I try and think of where I was before my mom was pregnant with me... it's like, what was I doing?

LOL idk I couldn't deal with that. If that were true I think I wouldn't care about life anymore and probably go out drinking every night and just pissing around in school every day instead of working.

And same. D;

[_Seth]

Originally Posted by GypsyGoth

I think about this too. Like if we came from nothing or nowhere we're most likely going back there.

Ooh that's a horrible thought.

Originally Posted by Niall

LOL idk I couldn't deal with that. If that were true I think I wouldn't care about life anymore and probably go out drinking every night and just pissing around in school every day instead of working.

No because in the time of which you are alive (which will most likely be a very long time, providing an axe-wielding snowman doesn't kill you), you'll wanna make the most of it.

[Boothy]

I used to but then I realised that it was just depressing so now I just go with the flow and take every day as it comes. It will end up alright in the end.

Whatever will be, will be.

[Marsh.]

Talk about cheering me up before bed, now I feel like crying.

[MrFrost]

Yeah, series 4 of lost

[Marsh.]

Originally Posted by MrFrost

Yeah, series 4 of lost

[Lee.]

Originally Posted by ukturtle

I really hate feeling like this. It feels like I've spent my whole life fighting so many battles like like losing my father, brothers, having to deal with being fat, anorexia, coming out, my step dad, my family, my abusive ex, trying to make a name for myself etc.

I feel like I have lost the will to fight anymore. I just want to be happy and I don't know how to be without putting up a fight.

Sorry to sound like a lost cause, I just need to some advice and didn't really know where else to turn.

Stop feeling like you have to fight. Concentrate on the positive things in your life rather than the negative and look on that list ^ as things you have overcome and has made you a stronger person as a result.

Try and look around you.. you deserve to be part of this world just as much as everybody else does. Life's to short to dwell on ****ty stuff. Appreciate what you do have.. I alwas think that if you have a roof over your head, food in your cupboards, health and the love of family and friends, you are one of the more priveleged, richest people in the world.

I know it's easy for other people to say stuff to make you feel better, but I do think that sometimes taking a step back and looking at the things you do have can make you feel better.

Spoiler:

you maybe just need a good man/shag!

[CharlieO]

I had a day like this today. it feels so soul destroying. i sat in my room lonley with no one to talk to and was just like what am i doing. because at the moment i dont really enjoy life at all. i have this constant feeling of emptiness physical and emotional its hard to explain you have this feeling you cant describe but its there and you dont know how to get rid of it.
i feel as if i dont know what im aiming for and i have no drive and no one to help me.
i feel life is kind of pointless at the moment because there is not many happy moments and i just question wether nothingness would be easier.

its hard to put into words but yeah i feel the same way and have been on and off for about 6 months due to certain things. but its horrible because it feels as if no matter how happy i am in a certain moment i know i will go back to that deathly feeling starting point.

its like if a graph showed peoples ups and downs mine would be the same as an average person just moved down the graph and the good moments hit the happy line but the comedown is like an empty pit of depression.

['Conor]

yes i have felt Lost, i rub the season 2 boxset every night before i go to sleep